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So reading back on all these old things I realize that I am terribly the same. It scares me to change things in my life, ever when good things are happening. I had some silly ideas about people and about myself. I find that each day that passes I slowly lose a bit of the passion I once had for writing and painting, why is that ( Read more... )

So lately I find it increasingly hard to concentrate on just that one point, and be happy with it, you see it might sound incomplete to you what I’m talking about, but honestly that’s how I feel, I feel as if I’m not focusing on the things that are supposed to be good, instead I keep wanting and wanting and wanting things out of my life, but I of ( Read more... )

So I have finally got the brain working, it feels like my brain has been in a rut for like 4 years and now I can finally start working it’s lazy ass. I say this because I finally got my writers block out of the way and finally I have an idea as to what my novel is gonna be about, I hope I win the writing contest with this one, it will be a bit of ( Read more... )

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I read The Age of Innocence, and found myself growing increasingly growing annoyed with Archer and Ellen. I found that not everyone goes for what they want, not everyone jumps into an ocean that has sharks. I did though, it seems that I am the one who is stupid, and it seems that I keep falling into the other half of my mind ( Read more... )

I wonder what people think about sacrifices, I mean does it make you a better person to give up something that will make you happy. Funny thing about being happy is that it has to be felt by just not one but two or more, otherwise it’s as if the happiness isn’t there. In the case of love if there isn’t another happy with the relationship you can’t ( Read more... )

So it feels like in the past three months I just dreamt my way to this point in my life, I have become insanely aware of all the things that can hurt me, all the things that make me cry, and all the things that I love and wouldn’t give up for the world. I find it funny how some ominous dark cloud follows me, and probably will for the rest of my ( Read more... )

Is it me or do we get a real blow when we say "oh that can never happen to me" and it does, or we say that "I don't believe in god" and the big guy in order to show is murderous ways condemn you to some pile of shit. I think that's whats happening to me lately, it's like someone up there is hating me and giving me bunch of bad luck. I'm never lucky ( Read more... )