goddamn i am drunk

the week of my life that i wasted completely

i mean, eventually
we could have hated each other, we could have drifted into vague mutual dislike
we could have hung up on one another and made each other miserable
it's viable
but i'll never know

a is m's ex ( Read more... )

and all i can think about today is a pitcher of beer at miya's, platters of weird sushi, ordering the weirdest shit we could find in the vegetarian half and explaining it to one another in the middle of it. the owner came out & thanked us for coming. he doesn't know ( Read more... )

you get glimpses of permanence in the most mundane things ( Read more... )

girl named danielle who knew mike through the theater posted the following note on facebook ( Read more... )

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the wake & funeral, going through the motions, all of it eventually starts to feel like some kind of rain dance ( Read more... )

sad sweet stupid stupid stupid

and in the meantime my subconscious is in hot overdrive performing the necessary deletions and conversions to process him into a photograph i feel fond but vague about, and i know the only way to feel better is to wear it threadbare, worry at it and worry at it till i can see through the holes ( Read more... )

i will never say no again