I'm  at school, and I feel this place is a waste of my time.

I wish I could truly say i'm happy inside, but I'm not.

Thats it

This summer has been nothing but a continual building of stress. I'm burned out from working 50 hours a week. Stressed out from all the work. Playing with the bands has been fun. But I am far to stressed now to do more. I'm just plain fucking miserable with my life right now.

The 91 Nissan 240sx has been fun, but its time for it to go, and make some ( Read more... )

I talked to Jared Fox today for the first time since he left in July. it was really good to talk to him and know he isn't dead. He's coming up in a couple of weeks, we're gonna chill and record, catch up some more too. I can't wait, I haven't seen him in so long and he's one of my best friends. I must say, I am excited for this event.  That is all.

after a shitty week, well... I went and got high, but i didn't get high, i went on a trip. That lasted for many many hours. I didn't care when I made the decision to do it because my week had sucked and nothing good ever came from it. now i'm fucked for my classes on monday cause i still feel like shit. Everything just isn't clicking, i just don't ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is my birthday and I was excited for it. Now not so much. Right now I actually feel more alientated than I have all the past few weeks. Just the disrespect and comments I've recieved just aren't thrilling. Why wait to tell me something when you could have just said it then and now. The more I think that I am where I want to be, the more ( Read more... )

Spring break is over. booo. I worked 38 hours. cool i guess. I'm in the middle of doing massive amounts of homework that I failed to do during the week. I saw a couple people. Thats cool. I think I've got a crush on a girl I can never have. Obviously. and no its not, Eva Angelina even though that chick is banging. A real girl. Just all these girls ( Read more... )

This weekend was lots of fun. The New Band got to play. First show went over really well. Had good sound. Just lots of fun. This weekend was good. BB King concert was great. Plates 2 nights in a row. Just a good weekend.

I don't know why I feel the way I do.  I feel like I've been burned. I just once again don't really feel like I belong here, I know people are friends, but. Some people are on my nerves already, and I guess just things change to fast. I just feel out of place I guess really. I don't really know. I guess I'm just fucked up in the head.... not as ( Read more... )

This update will not be to say how my life is going or anything like that. it is merely a statement or a question. or both ( Read more... )

Well its Christmas break and I'm supposed to be working 10 hours a day and making at the end of it $1500. Unfortunatly I have mono. Now I'm pretty much bed stricken and sleeping 17 hours a day. Oh yeah. and as for trying to blow out mucus and cough it up. It really hurts to the point of don't do it because the tonsils are so swollen. Oh yeah, and ( Read more... )