I booked my first ever real 'holiday' the other day. I mean, we've taken little trips (Claire and I to Italy) and gone to the US - to my parents' house - a bunch, but never had a family holiday where it's just us. I now make menial amounts of money, but enough that I was finally able to afford to buy this for my family. I'm excited ( Read more... )

I had to go to A&E on Saturday ( Read more... )

Got cut up on Monday. I have a few big holes and a few tiny ones. Lots of massive bruising. And a giant gall stone in a jar. What more could you want ( Read more... )

I trained this week, and after we finished yesterday I realised how cathartic the third day is for me. This is because, at the end of the day, we do scenarios. I never do exactly the same thing, but I almost always pick someone in the class that I want to beat up, and I go for them. Olly asked me last night 'what would happen if you got them?' and ( Read more... )

Seriously? How is it May ( Read more... )

My life is work lately. I guess that's what life is, for normal adults. I don't love being a normal adult, but I don't hate it ( Read more... )

Having identity issues lately. Am I the same person I was a year ago? Two years ago? Ten? I met up with Heather last week, and it was great to see her after so many years (almost 11!) and I found myself thinking- am I being 'me'? I think I definitely spend too much time worrying about it ( Read more... )

This week I've obsessed about shoes, makeup, and dresses. I'm not big on gendering, but this is pretty non-standard behaviour for me as a person! Last week I got the invitation for the British Red Cross Garden Party and realised that I had remembered the date wrong, and so began a week of panicked shopping. The always awesome Jo helped me get my ( Read more... )

Looking back on things is always a tricky business. We don't always remember clearly. We forget details- both positive and negative. I look back on my time just after Claire was born and it's obvious that I had PND, though I don't remember thinking I did at the time. There are things that happened that I have no reasoning for. I just know they were ( Read more... )

It's 2014. Surprisingly, the crushing depression and anxiety have not magically disappeared! :P ( Read more... )