yeah so i have an inner ear virus that is causing me to have vertigo. its so strange. and the meds i am on for it just make me really sleepy...i feel like im high at 4 am or something. i can't function or listen or write this paper...OOOG

gosh california is pretty...

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matt took this, its cool to think that this is the way he sees me...

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my bed is covered in random junk because i haven't slept in it in the longest time ( Read more... )

It's a little bit funny this feeling inside ( Read more... )

Long time since i have written. i do that a lot. i just stop. i dont know what to think about things. im at a crosspoint. why cant he see the good things in me? and support me ( Read more... )

First entry of 2007. that feels weird to write, i can't believe how time passes. i turn twenty-one this year, and i can't wait. not that i really even drink a lot because of my faulty immune system, but just the thought of being legal, able to buy if i want to, or go downtown with my older friends is really appealing. matt dan and russick are ( Read more... )

IV is so empty right now. i think there are only about two cars on my whole street. riley just left to go to a concert with kate and joe, and now im here all alone, cleaning and packing. i've cleaned the whole kitchen, swiffering the floor, and then MOPPING it with my brand new mop. i cleaned the living room, including vacuuming and dusting, ( Read more... )

so thursday night was so much fun at first, but really screwed me over. i almost lost him. i needed to say some of that stuff, and i really did mean it, but the alcohol made everything seem so much more important. i totally forgot how he had cooked for me, how he had held me close and told me he cared. all that went out the window, and i just ( Read more... )

im warm finally. maybe its because i just got out of a super hot shower and im in my sweats and matts super comfy patriots sweatshirt. i keep stealing it heh. the lighting outside is so beautiful :) im excited because matts making me some dinner tonight. he has had the flu since sunday, and i've been trying to take care of him, but he is ( Read more... )