I had forgotten you existed, truly I have.
and yet here I sit, swarmed-- overwhelmed with a presence long forgotten
with a dream I have parted
and a love I am secure.
the times move only as we wish them
slowly, ever so slowly

when do we turn back
turn around
when is it enough

I could sleep for a year.

Je taime, Je taime, Je taime. I cannot say it enough. Sort un bouffon, truly. those words "fate's a jester" ring through my heart, my head, my ears. I wander, content in the darkness. I dance my way to light. I love.... and how I love. with every inch of my said existance. Ce sera bien. they will, have faith, hope, take a look at me. examiner mes ( Read more... )

Rest In Peace Ashley

you were truly an angel in all of our lives. you were the "it" girl, and to us and you, we never thought something would break you. You were always smiling, laughing, loving. I keep the memories I shared with you close to my heart. I know you're in a better place now, but your absence will be noticed forever. thank you for ( Read more... )

things make sense these days. I haven't felt this overjoyed at simply being alive in years. Things go wrong, they get progressivly better or worse until something is done about them. Needless to say, I had forgotten how simple life could be. At the Stood Up Shot Down show last night, I realized how much music really, is my life. They were ( Read more... )

I went to Cupz today and just sat and wrote and thought a lot. Its been so long since I haven't had writers block. Im not sure why, but I lost myself. I lost everything I knew, and everything I was aiming towards, got hazy. I lost myself. what a scary thought. I really did, I sold myself out for an image. I started drinking, smoking, caring what ( Read more... )

I'm never coming back.

I didn't know I'd missed being home, here, so much. so did mother. we're seriously contemplating moving back. =)

everything abuot this place is just, wow, the trees, the people, the air, everything.

Im even turning into a cat lover.

yeah, Im never coming back. Arizona is a suckfest. and I just said "suckfest." egad.

Last ( Read more... )

"Im thinking of getting drunk tomorrow morning when I wake up. The best part of having the house to yourself is getting to walk around naked. I plan on sliding into my kitchen wearing only socks and sunglasses while blasting some awesome music."
-Jimmie

oh how I love talks after work with Jimmie.

tomorrow should be exciting. =)

between puffs of smoke from her cigarette, he can see her mouth forming unspoken words.
"what is it you're not saying?" he asks

"everything" is the only word she can fathom to let drop from her lips.

we don't speak because we like the sound of our own voices. we speak in hopes of someone listening, understanding, and caring. not in the hopes of a rebuttle to spark and arguement. we do things for the peace of mind, not for the result, not for the regrets in the morning. we do it for the love we can't find and the relationships we wish we had. we ( Read more... )