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Indefinite Changes
I have been waiting to say this until it was significant, or at least until it looked like it might stick. I started taking medicine for Major Depressive Disorder in March and have continued to take it (on almost a daily basis) since. I am really bad with medicine. I tend to take it for two weeks and then just stop. I remember that I should take ( Read more... ) -
Oh Louis, Louis.
This is the third in a set of entries. Please see the former entries by clicking on this entry's tag or by scrolling down to the two previous entries ( Read more... ) -
Two men, a barefooted horse, and a Louis.
**This is the second of two entries in a story I am beginning. If you want to read the first entry, please go to the entry prior to this one or find it by clicking on the tag attached to this entry ( Read more... ) -
Journey between two walls.
There's three of us. I don't know where we're travelling but I know we must do it urgently. There's also the most adorable chubby puppy I have ever seen, brown with a round face and even rounder eyes that melt you to the ground. We're accompanied by a white horse with the most beautiful white hair I have ever seen ( Read more... ) -
Failure to Write
One of my greatest fears is to pursue writing and to fail miserably. To find what I feel that I already know, that I have no talent and am less than ordinary, that this is all I will ever be. This leads to brief periods of writing with great oceans between them of academic writing. I love academic writing. This is something I do well. I am ( Read more... ) -
Try to remember.
If you don't have to pour your entire soul into the pursuit of something, what does it mean to acquire it? Aren't the sacrifices we make for something, the very thing that make finally attaining it all the better? Because if everybody had it, it would be like breathing, important but not directly connected to your life or your purpose. What you do ( Read more... ) -
Warning: Rant/Whining.
First of all, I hate that now whenever I write something on this journal, all sorts of ads and spam are added as comments. It's annoying ( Read more... ) -
Grow the fuck up.
You make everything more difficult. You make everything more stressful. You constantly and constantly make more work for me ( Read more... ) -
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For the next two weeks I am going to be in a double Hell Week of academia in which all of my major papers, presentations and exams will be due. I hope it ends with as little agony as possible or my heart may explode from the mounting pressure. -
I'm not afraid.
If I could write a letter to you, this is what I would say. So without tearing our family apart, without any repercussions, I say here what I ache most to say when you lose control, when you are being rude, judgmental, and cruel, yet I most retrain myself from saying ( Read more... )