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[shoelace009]

I'm wondering what I am doing in college. There are two parts of me. One thrives and the other sits there the entire time, being dragged along and thinking, what the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here

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[darkspirited1]

I totally understand you on this one. I can't imagine life working in a cubicle, but the things I enjoy most don't pay well. The money only matters because without it, I cannot make ends meet. College leaves me in debt, and at a teacher salary, I will not be able to pay it off very quickly. Money worries me. The future scares me. I feel completely unprepared for the world.

I hope you find something that gives you peace of mind. College is not for everyone, that is true. I just hope, that regardless of what you decide, you find a job that you enjoy.

And as always, your words are so poetic. I've always enjoyed reading your posts, and I'm glad there's another to read.

[shoelace009]

I love this icon even more!

I have all of the same feelings and I'm a senior lol. I am the assistant to the dean of the Honors Program, who is also an English professor. I'm on the fast track to a life that I don't want. All the steps are there. I just don't know if I want to take them.

I mean I thrive here. I teach college classes and I get good grades so you would think it is for me. There isn't any reason why it shouldn't be. But I would much rather be at home, reading Harry Potter or researching mythology or children's lit. than sitting in a classroom. My boss/professor thinks I want to teach college courses because that it what I first was interested in but the truth is I am a senior and I don't know if I want to teach and I don't know if I want to be in publishing. I want to work with something a little more creative but creativity doesn't really write a whole lot of paychecks.

[darkspirited1]

:) hehe

But I would much rather be at home, reading Harry Potter or researching mythology or children's lit. than sitting in a classroom.

Have you considered working with children's lit? You can always teach a Harry Potter college course as well or teach about children's lit. I know you said teaching wasn't something you wanted necessarily, but if it's the right field it might be. Or you could be a librarian and spend your life among books.

[shoelace009]

I have. I actually am going to do my graduate studies in mythology and get my PHD in children's lit. But I don't really want to spend a life grading papers. I would rather just do research and study and write about children's literature. That's the hard part.

[exsrl920]

live life in between life. how precious is the moment you pay for, after work is done, to feel free?