Comments | shoelace009: Graduation, Go Away.

shoelace009

Graduation, Go Away.

Apr 19, 2012 22:35

So I'm about to graduate. I got a full ride to two different graduate programs studying children's literature. All of that is exciting and I am very lucky. But all the same, I don't want these next few weeks to speed by. All this nostalgia is hitting me and I am really going to miss this place. I am ready to leave it but I don't want to say goodbye ( Read more... )

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wytchcroft April 20 2012, 02:42:15 UTC

bitter-sweet no doubt - in any case, a much deserved CONGRATULATIONS to you! :))

shoelace009 April 20 2012, 02:48:48 UTC

Thank you! I am very excited. Just I spent so much time my first few years of college thinking of nothing but graduate school and preparing for it and the closer I got, the more I started to realize this was the time of my life and I squandered it away obsessing over small, irrelevant details and stress. It's just my second major milestone is passing me by and it's very intimidating. I feel like I'll wake up tomorrow and be sixty years old. It's an extreme thing to say but it's really hitting me how fast everything is going.

wytchcroft April 20 2012, 02:52:12 UTC

oh indeed - i can understand - but rest assured, such times will linger in the memory much more clearly and for far longer than you may think (here in the now).

shoelace009 April 20 2012, 02:56:53 UTC

True true. Well anyways, what have you been up to?

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shoelace009 April 21 2012, 16:35:44 UTC

Lol I will. I'm excited just easing into the idea of no longer being a college student in terms of undergrad and that whole environment.

darkspirited1 April 20 2012, 08:48:52 UTC

I am feeling the EXACT same way. Plus, the only thing I've ever known is going to school. Sure, I've had jobs on the side, but never a Real Job(TM) and a heap of bills to pay. Paying back student loans? Don't wanna... :(

CONGRATS though!

shoelace009 April 21 2012, 16:36:41 UTC

Thank you! And I know how you feel. I just got a letter today that says I am going to need to pay back 43,000, which is nothing next to the 97,000 my boyfriend owes.

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shoelace009 April 21 2012, 16:39:56 UTC

It's very intimidating, getting old. Because when you're young, you fear death. Fear getting hurt or kidnapped or monsters. When you're just coming into your adulthood, you think you've accepted it. You say, I've lived this long so apparently there are no monsters I can't escape. Then it's like an unwanted birthday card with a threat in it when you get your first grey hair and it basically says: Hello, this is Death. Enjoy what you have now because this is a reminded that somebody, whether you're ready or not, you're going to be with me.

Dramatic yes, but it really hits you how fragile life is. Maybe I am just super sensitive but I think it is just hitting me that this aging thing is a step-by-step process and without realizing I was walking, I am finding out I took some steps without even intending to do so.