in job corp, being a job whore... disapointment and lies, this program. whatever. i'll do what i need to, live in reno w/ my baby, go to college... it will all be better soon...

another bomb hit, and i am dealing with it. i understand the situation, and why it happened, but i still hurt. all i want is to give sheri this bond before i leave to job corps, if she accepts, then nothing can go wrong.

did shrooms last night with mom. they were good, and we both ate to much. she flipped out, and i broke her cell phone, because she was using it as a focal point for her bad trip. oops. i smiled so big i thought my lips would split. later on, in the dark, i had a fight with sheri in my head, and scared the real sheri to death... i hope she knows how ( Read more... )

if everything turns out the way it looks, i'll go pawn my guitar... it's not much, but untuil i start getting job corps allowance, it's the only money i can muster, and money musterings needed. i've got a headache that wont go away, and i wish i was on a bus to sheris house right now, but she doesnt want me to come over. i understand, to me, what i ( Read more... )

and i'm standing on the outskirts, staring through the cracks in the wall of the palace in wich my love lies. i know that if i stay to long, that i will be crushed, and i look outside to see the last of my comerades drifting into the snow, nearly out of my vision. if i'm going to catch up with them, i'd better leave now: squatterville is falling, ( Read more... )

on the bus i read "the bell jar" again, and i have never felt as if someone was speaking for me. the only problem? i'm not sure if sheri is buddy willard, or i am, and if i'm esther greenheart, or she is ( Read more... )

ask, and ye shall receive. as i talked to sheri, and begged her to tell me that she loves me outloud, the boy in question was hasing a request translated "will you go out with me?" sheri is considering it, but consideration is all it takes ( Read more... )

why would a woman refuse to tell her boyfreind that she loves him in front of another man ( Read more... )

ticket seven days in advance: $79
gift fee: $15
total: $94
leave may 30th... the guide says it only takes 1 1/2 days, but that cant be right... wish i had some headphones... sheri, i'm on my way!!!!

bus ticket to las vegas: $139

mother b-day gift: $50
grandmothers b-daygift: $20
work at labor ready today: $20

grand total thus far: $90
money to go: $50
holding sheri in my arms at the bus station: priceless