I have written here about the heartbreaks of life. But my question tonight is how do we know when it is real. Some say you just know. Its as simple as that. Well what if you know but you are unsure if the other person feels the same. What if you feel so certain that you and that person are meant to be together in the end, yet you find out that it ( Read more... )

end it. just end this misery.end it all.

usually i am not the type of girl who puts up a wall. usually i am the first one to open my heart to you and let you in the minute i meet you. for some reason though it is different this time. i dont know what i am afraid of. or why i am doing this. but i can feel myself put up that wall. i dont talk that much around him. when he askes questions ( Read more... )

We are told we are the victims. Nothing that happened was our fault. It sure does not feel like that. If it wasnt our fault then why could we not stop it. Why could we not take control? WE let them control us. WE gave ourselfs to them, letting them do whatever they wanted to us. Then in a moment we changed our minds. Even if we never wanted it. Our ( Read more... )

At this moment I hate you. I hate you for making me believe that you actually cared. And its not even like this is the first time you've done this.....its happened many times in the past eight months. Its all lies. I wish you would just tell the fucking truth so that I would stop caring and accept what we really are. You have made me think that we ( Read more... )

i tend to have this horrible habit of fucking up ( Read more... )

The pain has yet to subside. This hurts so much. I never would have thought I would be this upset so early. You told me you loved me. Right now I can’t imagine a day where I am not crying over you. My heart doesn’t feel broken that’s the thing. It feels like its been stabbed. And part of me thinks that’s worse. Everything reminds me of you and we ( Read more... )

first of all i had an amazing night because i got to see my bf who i havent seen in like two weeks so i was really happy ( Read more... )

i met a new guy. he seems pretty cool. we talked for like two hours. i can already feel myself being careful. but i was smiling the entire converstaion. hmmm maybe this one wont be bad. we shall see.

today i found out how truly broken i must be. im afraid to be on a stage by myself and sing. that used to be so fimiliar to me; it was part of my everyday life. now i am afraid. how did i become this way? when did i become afraid to be vulnerable? and how am i going to be able to work past this? this blog even scares me and i have posted my heart ( Read more... )