my heart needs to be loved again

its that time of year where everyone pairs off into there little couples ( Read more... )

for one night i would like my heart to stop bleeding

i have become indecisive between two boys
the boy who ripped my heart to pieces
that is the boy i thnki still love
but then theres someone knew
who makes me laugh
who is here not hundreds of miles away
so pick him right
well i worry that he no longer wants me
maybe i am too late
maybe i should just shut up and take a chance again

my eyes are red and swollen from all the crying
thats all i seem to be able to do now
it also the only thing i feel like doing
why does love have to hurt so much?

the music doesnt seem right ( Read more... )

i know i need to let go ( Read more... )

Tonight things have finally become clear to me. I am not good enough. Its that simple.

I believe things happen for a reason and that there is a deeper meaning to things that do happen. What i dont understand is why things are happening they way they are to me. I want to know the deeper meaning because not knowing it is just making me sadder and more depressed. Every night i ask for the answer of why things arent working out for me ( Read more... )

I'm more lonely now than I have been for a while. I tell myself that it has nothing to do with not having Bryan in my life because I don't want to believe that he actually made me happy because I know we just used each other to some extent. I hate myself at this moment. For being like this. I just want to be truly happy for once; to not fake it ( Read more... )