Finally no parents no sister no sister's boyfriend just me!!!! and of course the dogs and the cat but still i finally have the house to myself for an entire week!!!!! After yesterday I was so happy to know that i wouldn't see them for an entire week and honestly i love that!!!

SHE TOOK IT OUT OF MY ROOM!!!!!!! man i can't believe it!!!! she actually went into my room and took it and then read it!!!!! i'm soooo pissed!!!! and now of course i'm going to get a lecture about how lucky i am to have such a wonderful life and blah blah blah. i don't even remember half the stuff i wrote about so who the hell knows whats in there ( Read more... )

OMG! I can't find my notebook anywhere!!!!!!!! man i can't believe i lost it!!!!!! if my parents found it they probably read it (because as they say 'privacy is not a right but a privilege!') and i am so screwed! God how could i have let this happen!!!!!!!!!! now i'm stressed about this and i was tried but i wanted to write something so i went ( Read more... )

I know I'm not perfect ( Read more... )

I just found pictures of Ryan and then I started looking through a bunch of my pictures and found more of the both of us. Its weird seeing the pictures and knowing how happy he made me and how much I loved him but then how much he hurt me when he left. Now I'm confused. Part of me still loves him and I think that part of me will always love him but ( Read more... )

Have you ever had a death in the family but it's someone who you've never met so you don't know how to really react when you find out they've died. That's exactly how I feel. It's another hill in the road that my dad's been going through with his side of the family. I mean first with his brother and all that and now this. I may hate my dad a lot of ( Read more... )

The fighting in now constantly. It seems like it only ends when one of them leaves the house. They're trying to hide it but not doing a very good job at it. I hate this. I want it all to end.

Why am I such a disappointment to my parent ( Read more... )

I GOT MY NAVEL PIERCED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Surprisingly it really doesn't hurt. The clamps are just like a little pressure and you can barely feel the needle. For me getting my cartilage hurt more. The lady said I have to be really careful though since my bellybutton is like a cave she said that the jewelry will want to go in and that's ( Read more... )

I think I'm starting to fall apart. I can't seem to get pick myself back up completely. I feel like I keep getting either pushed down or I'm falling for one reason or another. Every since last year after Ryan left I can't get myself back up that high. Don't get me wrong I'm trying my hardest to pick myself up but lately I've been having some ( Read more... )