i don't know you very well ( Read more... )

day 3: i didnt want to write about this on day 1 or day 2 because i was mostly trying to get myself off the habit of hitting "f" and waiting for facebook to come up, immediately, as the first option. it's weird and i still feel like i am missing things, because honestly i am. but i am hoping to prove that the value of what i am missing versus the ( Read more... )

everyone else remains hopeful.
but hope does not build homes or empires
and empirically speaking,
i expect the same.

we are all in this same world ( Read more... )

decisions like this should not weigh so heavily on my mind.

isn't it fitting that i cant quite find any words that describe how i feel. i'm at such an amazingly awesome time in my life right now, amazingly important and open and filled with endless possibilities. and yet amidst it all i can't help but feel lonelier than ever ( Read more... )

i dont think there is a single word that describes how i feel right now better than trapped ( Read more... )

all i want to do is run away

i think this is the last real place in the world that i can vent. write some close approximation to my true feelings. and lately increasingly i feel distressed because, in uncertain terms, life feels muted. and lonely. and boring and monotonous and scary and debilitating and hard and long and scary and so many words that i cant pluck any one out of ( Read more... )

things i want to do before i leave philly:

finish 4 books
get a little tan
save (some?) money