How did I not realize this about myself? A crippling inability of REALLY confiding in someone, a total lack of a reliable person to turn to on down days. I've faced my demons on my own for so long that I can't even imagine letting somebody else in on the fucked up mess that i somehow hold together as my life. Intentionally hyperbolic as that ( Read more... )

where are you? ive been waiting an awful long time for you to come. now that you're here it doesn't matter we have all the time in the world time is on our side BUT FOR A LITTLE WHILE, i was worried. worried you had lost your way and found your own way into outstretched arms of someone else whose words you took down in a feverish state and yet, you ( Read more... )

status check: aight, although i just found out today that i'm not allowed to have visitors during fall break and evan and mac are coming for the JEW show on monday (during fall break). annoying as shit

and of course i hit my biggest funk of the year so far tonight. when there's no reason for me to. when i am stone cold sober and i don't even have any work hanging over my head and practice was canceled and the day went as i wanted. but maybe that's it. when this is what i want i'm realizing that this. isn't. what. i. want. at least not right now. ( Read more... )

it's been one year and fourteen months but i still ain't over you

so i watched "she's out of my league" and it kinda tickled my romantic love bone and that combined with feelings of summer and youth and i just want SOMETHING. i want to hold hands and walk down a street and talk and laugh and smile in between. i want beautiful smiles and flowing hair and ill see you theres. but most of all i want mutuality. i want ( Read more... )

my whole life i've been taught and learned how to love and leave
the older i get, the more i can't wait to find the person i love too much to ever leave

i think my style of writing is too vague, wordy, airy, for college.

shucks

4/20 was pretty awesome, my first smoking 4/20. smoked at midnight, smoked at 4:20, smoked 12 bowls out of the bong overall. good number. good day. now work so that i can come HOME ( Read more... )

sometimes i wonder what it would be like if people ACTUALLY knew all of me. if any one person knew everything i do everybody i know every thought i think... what would they think of me? i like to think that largely, or at least partially in the most important ways, i'm a good person. or at least not a bad person. and i WANT to meet someone that ( Read more... )