I looked long and hard
But couldn't find it in my heart
to let you in.
"Do you love me?"
"Not yet."
I tried, I promise.
Maybe I could have tried harder.
I should have tried harder.
But I don't think
it would have made any difference.
There are lots of things
I could have said.
Should have said.
"How about now?"
"No, it's still not

There's a certain beauty to the concrete jungle ( Read more... )

It's been a very long time, my dear friends. Let me know if you are still alive, if you happen to come across this entry. School's almost over for the year and then I will be HOME! I'm excited but then again. . . what am I going to do besides work? And my parents are pretty much going to drive me insane. A month at home over Christmas was ( Read more... )

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It takes a strong person to stand in the face of rejection time after time without breaking down completely. I build myself back up again and I go on living but it hurts. I'm not sure I'm strong enough to go through it again. Living with rejection, being reminded every day that you aren't good enough chisels away at something inside. It ( Read more... )

What would happen if I wrote something here? Would anyone read it? Would anyone respond? I mean I know I occasionally still read other people's LJ's but what about mine? Is this still a valid medium of expression? Will people be surprised? Or will they even notice?

So this morning I pulled into the parking lot and was trying to get to my space, when people walked out in front of me, and I was like, "Hello, move, please." And then I realized it was Kaitlyn and Rennay and Hannah, and they wouldn't move. Pointless except to say thanks a lot guys ( Read more... )

Yesterday was my birthday. It was an interesting day. Around noon I got up and Kathleen Ingalls and Allie and I went to Panera for lunch. Then we went shopping for my birthday present. I went to someone else's birthday party who I don't really know. Ate someone else's cake. Hung out with Lindsay. Went home, got a few gifts from my parents ( Read more... )

IF YOU READ THIS,
even if we DO SPEAK OR DON'T SPEAK OFTEN,
comment with one memory of me and you.
it can be anything you want. GOOD OR BAD.
just as long as it HAPPENED.
THEN, post this on your xanga.
see what other people remember about YOU....

OK, OK, sorry but I just wanted to see what kind of responses I would get. I'm so nostalgic.

Got the Harry Potter book about midnight on Saturday. Finished it approximately 25 hours later. I know this seems a little, well frankly, dorky, but it's really simple language and I was rather bored ( Read more... )