It has been a long while since i have posted. This post is going to be my private post to myself to get all my feelings out ( Read more... )

Hey all. Good days good days.. Yesterday i did nothing but sit home online talking to people. It was fun ALOT OF FUN. I finally went out with james to wendys but then came back home because well im lazy.. Then a surprise Tina came over, and o man it scared me at first but it was fine. we talked for like 5 min but then she had to leave but it was a ( Read more... )

why even bother. I dont know why i make the struggle to talk to people and try to be nice to them when they dont give me the respect back. Ill try and talk with them and they put me on the back burner ( Read more... )

Blah i dont know what to decide im so torn between two desicions... it royally sucks. I need help but cant ask anyone for help because its what i think and its what i have to try myself.... its life i know.

I think ill go through with it... i mean ive felt that way after doing it before why not go another round...... ,,,, hating it

Hey all. It was a good christmas and a pretty fun weekend. I got a bunch of gift certificates, a new watch, a side bag which i needed for school, and a hat haha its pretty cool though ( Read more... )

Hey all. I havent updated in so long, i think i may start doing it alot now... idk, its a possibility. So yea made it through my first semester in college.WHOOOOO. So now in turn im working full time at the sign shop which is good for me cause of money and bad cause it takes up sleeping time... and we all know i enjoy my sleeping time. I got an A ( Read more... )

Hey all. I went from a great day to a "what the fuck" day. well my dad went good cause i went back to my music production class after the professor has been gone for like 2 weeks. He heard my trialer for The fifth element and loved it. He asked me to replay it 3 times cause he thought it was great. I put in some mozart and a opera mix into the ( Read more... )

Hey all. This weekend royally sucked. All my plans got fucked up yet again because my brothers of course expect me to cancel my all my plans for the day for them. I woke up and staggerred around the house for a while. I was planning on going to nyc to meet up with james and angela and go to central park. So my dad comes in my room and is like o ( Read more... )

Hey all. i voted today for the first time ever haha, though i wont tell who i voted for. All today i was in a groggy mood, im finding myself in that mood so often now. I need that space filled in my chest is what i need. Im already planning next summer for myself. Im going to california for a road trip. I asked my dad expecting him to say no but he ( Read more... )

i think i have to act like a complete dick and asshole in order to get a girl to be attracted to me. I realize they would rather be treated like shit then nicely and all i know is nice so im screwed.