In my restless dreams, I go to school and realize I forgot pants. ..... D:
Silent Hill 2 Theme
= = I see that town. = =
Name: Kit
Age: 20
Gender: Tomboy 4 lyf. Dude or dudette, I don't care what I'm stamped as.
The links to three unstamped applications you have voted on:
http://community.livejournal.com/shrating/94831.html
http://community.livejournal.com/shrating/94562.html
http://community.livejournal.com/shrating/94348.html
= = I know I’ve done a terrible thing = =
Do you think you are an aggressive person? Sometimes I'm not sure. I'd say I'm far more defensive than aggressive-- I rarely attack people, even if I really, really want to. It doesn't usually accomplish anything and usually just makes people feel bad, which I don't like to do. But that said, if someone really, really does something to get under my skin... I wind up feeling positively bloodthirsty. But in order for that to happen, it's usually not an offense towards me. It has to be towards someone I'm protective of.
Is that how others see you as well? I'm not sure about that either. I think most people consider me not to be aggressive. I'm shy a lot of the time and tend to go to great lengths to get people to "just get along, okay?" But that said, I've heard through the grapevine that a lot of people who hurt or otherwise attacked those I was close to consider me to be "scary" and "intimidating". I never went out of my way to TRY to be, but I guess I must have something about me to have gotten that kind of reputation among what could arguably be termed my "enemies".
Would you consider yourself charming? Hmm .... no. Not really, no. I can come off as charming, but it's usually forced and it's easy for me to overcompensate in social situations and just come off as annoying because I'm really an introvert by nature. For the most part, I'm just awkward. I've gotten myself into trouble by trying to make conversation where I shouldn't before.
Would other people agree? I dunno, you'd have to ask them. Maybe? I guess it depends on the person. Not a lot of people really 'get' me.
Sexy or cute? AAAHAHAHHAH. Uhh. Cute I guess. I'm definitely not sexy and I hesitate to call myself 'cute' too. I don't have a very good self-image.
And what's other people's take on this? Well, I've never ONCE had anyone refer to me as sexy or even be attracted to me, but a lot of people have told me I'm cute, so I guess I'll take their words for it.
= = Every day I stare up at the cracks in the ceiling = =
It's all about the sinning, right? So how do you think each of the seven deadly sins is reflected within you? [Answer below]
Lust: I'm asexual. It's not that it disgusts me or sends me screaming for the hills or anything. But I've never been interested in it, not in the slightest. That said, I think this answer should be taken with a grain of salt because let's face it, SH2 is all about the Freudian mindset! Even if I balk at the idea of personally gettin' down and dirty, I can crack pervy jokes and oogle at eyecandy with the best of them. I'm a college kid, what can I say.
Gluttony: I've got a sweet tooth and sometimes I probably indulge myself a little more than I should, especially when I'm under a lot of stress. But that said, I don't think I'm particularly out of the ordinary in this respect-- and furthermore I really don't understand how people can gorge on junkfood on a regular basis. I like me a nice burger and fries as an occasional treat when I'm tired and stressed-- but all the time? Yuck. Give me a salad, please.
Greed: This isn't really a big thing for me. I like sharing and most of the time I do it without a second thought, even with people I don't even know the names of. I like helping people out and if I have something they need, I'm usually more than happy to spread the wealth. Though obviously if someone's a jerk about it or feels like they're entitled to what's mine, then forget it. They can fend for themselves.
Sloth: Aheh. Aheheheh. Y'know, I'm actually a little conflicted on this one. There's no way around it-- I'm lazy. I love naps and I procrastinate like there's no tomorrow. A lot of the time I feel like I scramble to get work done at the last minute. But on the other hand, a lot of the people who talk with or hang out with me on a regular basis wind up being shocked at how long, hard, and persistently I work to get everything I need to (schoolwork, commissions, personal projects, research, etc) done. And the truth is that even though I love to laze around, I actually tend to get really depressed and antsy when I have nothing to work on. As weird as it sounds for someone who just labeled themselves lazy, I'm happiest when I'm busy. So either I'm a lazy person who's been conditioned into working a lot, or I'm a workaholic who desperately wishes to be lazy for real. Hard to say.
Wrath: I have a temper. Sometimes it can be a really bad temper. For the most part, though, I'm a very calm, level-headed person. I've been through a lot of very challenging, very frightening experiences and ultimately I've been able to keep my head through all of them, which was an enormous surprise, even to me. So I would say that even if I do have a temper, I'm very good at keeping it down and staying rational. It takes a lot to get me to the point of true wrath. But I have been there. And it's a bit scary. I hate hurting people but as much as I hate it, I'm good at it. I've said a lot of things I regret to people I love while angry-- and done a lot of damage that I don't actually know how to fix.
Envy: If I had to pick a sin that I'm most guilty of, it'd probably be this. I appreciate the things that I have, but it always makes me sour to see people who have things that I don't feel they deserve. Specifically things that I feel I or others less fortunate could be using better. Seeing entitled people squander what they have or waste it on stupid things disgusts me.
Pride: This is another one I'm a little conflicted on. On one hand, I don't have a whole lot of self-confidence. I'm shy and have trouble with feelings of self-loathing. But on the other, I have a very strong thirst for justice and it's almost impossible for me to say 'I'm sorry' without snarling when I really feel that I'm in the right. Also, though I don't usually act on it, I sometimes have trouble with taking people who don't agree with me seriously. And I hate admitting that I'm wrong. I tend to get defensive very easily when my opinions are challenged. That said, underneath it all, I'm a very insecure person, and I'll readily admit to my flaws.
= = It’s just that this may be my last chance... = =
Congratulations, you've won yourself a trip to Silent Hill as the game's protagonist! Hey, apparently the town's even sent a letter to get you there! So... what does that letter say? I'm not sure the letter would be from anyone in particular, even a friend. It would probably say something like "Help me. You're the only one who can." You know, that sort of "Help me, Obi-Wan! You're my only hope!" kind of thing. Almost more than any other motivation, people in need really get my protagonist instincts flowing. I would be creeped out by a letter like that, but I'm not sure I'd be able to stay away. One way or another, I would go to Silent Hill to try and find whoever sent it, and save them.
Whoops, sorry. I misread my notes, you're only a side character after all. Well, at least it's time for the actual protagonist to pay you a visit. So assuming they found you doing something representative of your state of mind, how and where would the two of you meet? I'd probably be wandering alone with a weapon of some sort-- most likely an improvised one. I'd be cautious and alert-- they wouldn't catch me by surprise. I'd probably be very wary at first, and unless they looked utterly harmless, start out by telling them that if they planned to hurt me, I'd be taking a pound of flesh off them for every scratch. Assuming that didn't scare them off or make them mad, I'd probably relax, tell them it was nice to see another human and maybe crack a joke to ease the tension.
The protagonist asks you if you'd like to come with them. How do you react? Unless they totally skeeved me out, I'd probably leap at the offer. There's safety in numbers and while I've always been able to take care of myself in dangerous situations, I'd feel way more comfortable with somebody else. Even something as simply as the comfort of human company can make it easier to keep a cool head.
And what would you do if they asked if they could come with you? Again, unless they were a huge creeper, I'd let them. In fact, wise or not, I think my protective instincts would probably come on like a lightbulb if they asked me if they could come with me. Regardless of age or gender, that kind of question as opposed to inviting ME along with THEM would come off to me as kind of vulnerable and I'd probably feel the urge to lead and keep them safe.
= = Or maybe I just disgust you.... = =
Killing Mary: Right or wrong? Wrong. Even as an act of mercy, it was still wrong. But that said, I deeply, deeply empathize with James and Mary both. They were people who were scared, hurt, and in all likelihood, all alone. I saw no mention of any family or friends being there for them when they probably seriously needed support. Human beings are incredibly resilient in some ways, but also incredibly fragile. James did a terrible, terrible thing-- but he did it for all kinds of reasons, both selfish and sympathetic, and more than anything else, I think the entire game gets across the fact that he was suffering so deeply, so profoundly, that he snapped. Likewise, Mary was wrong to be lashing out at people who cared about her-- but jesus, can you blame her? People do bad things-- sometimes very bad things-- when they're scared and in pain. Killing Mary was wrong but I'd be a damn hypocrite if I said that I didn't understand or empathize with the pain they were both going through, and the SNAP James experienced after three years of watching someone he loved rot. I'd be broken, too.
Killing Eddie: Right or wrong? Right. If James hadn't, Eddie would have killed him. Eddie is another character that I feel great sympathy for (in fact, there is literally not a single character in this game for whom I don't), but it was self-defense. Eddie started the fight, with intent to kill. There is nothing wrong with protecting yourself from a crazy guy with a gun.
Killing Laura: Right or wrong? Wrong. What the hell? She's just a little kid. And even if she wasn't, she didn't do anything worthy of death. Being a brat isn't a crime, it's just obnoxious.
Killing time: Right or wrong? I wouldn't say that it's right OR wrong, but in Silent Hill, dawdling around will probably get you killed, so just on principal... I wouldn't.
If your sanity rating dropped to zero, do you think you would be more likely to turn to homicide or suicide? I'd hate to say it, but probably homicide. While I certainly do struggle with feelings of self-loathing, I think if I completely snapped, I would probably be more inclined to lash out at others while in a frenzy than I would be to lash out at myself, because I'd probably be scared. A frightened animal is the most likely to bite.
In James's place, which of the game's endings would you have chosen? Leave. It's not a happy ending, but then, none of them are. I would want to redeem myself for the things I had done wrong, and I wouldn't be able to do that by killing myself (In Water). No matter how hopeless I felt or how much I felt like I didn't deserve life, I think my desire to somehow make up for my sins would overcome it. To do that, you have to be alive.
And if you got to make up your own ending, how would that one look like? James would drag himself back to his car, only to find that Maria and Pyramid Head hotwired it and took off joyriding. James is forced to find his way home on foot with Laura following him and deliberately stepping on the heels of his boots the entire time. Hijinks ensue.
= = This letter has gone on too long so I’ll say goodbye. = =
By the way, which Silent Hill 2 character do you consider yourself least like and WHY? To be entirely honest, I strongly empathize with every. Character. In this game. Even if I don't agree with, or condone the actions of some of them, and even if some of them are annoying, mean, or force me to fight my gag reflex in their introduction scene (not gonna lie, Eddie, your capacity for prolonged vomiting is disturbing). To me, that's the beauty of the story. But Pyramid Head is judgement, punishment, aggression, and terrifying power all in one. I'm not any of that. Any desire I have to punish or harm is protective and more or less ends when my loved ones and I are safe-- as soon as the threat is gone, my hackles go down. Whereas Pyramid Head is nothing else if not relentless. And then there's the whole raping thing. That ain't cool, man.
The correct reply to "From now on, if anyone makes fun of me I’ll kill them!" is... James, buddy, I know you mean well, but you're an idiot. The correct response is to appease, appease, appease. A person with a gun who is talking about enjoying killing people is not going to listen to reason. Do a bit of ass-kissing to make sure you're not the next one to get a bullet in the brain and then scram.
And just where did Eddie get his pizza from anyway? On a serious note, I have a feeling that Eddie's personal Otherworld manifested it for him, considering gluttony is one of his issues, but I also like to imagine that for some reason there was some kind of otherworldly overlap going on and that somewhere in the real world's Pete's Bowl-O-Rama, there was a very confused bowler wondering where their pizza went.
Jump down the hole? [Y/N] ? Hell no. I'm pushing a mattress down first.
Anything else you would like to add? Nope.