im scared. im scared that im becoming the kind of person that ive always hated. yet at the same time im happy with my life and i feel guilty.

I dont hate him.
I hate me.

a part of me died tonight:'(

i love being free!!!! i just wish my aim worked:(

OMG! i love subway! it is the best place ever. and its so 'chill' there. and im finished with highschool!!!! i cant believe it. i feel so relieved. and im pretty sure im getting a 4.0 which is really exciting because it's like my first 4.0 in highschool i think. now i just have to work and have fun until August when i can go to san francisco with ( Read more... )

i gave my testimonial thing today and it wasnt really bad like i thought it would be...just really short. I called in sick today at work and pam was really upset. i dont care though cause im quitting tomorrow. ive had it there. i applied at subway today and i think i got the job, i think i got it when i called in. oh well they dont work till ( Read more... )

I have to give a small testimonial tomorrow but i really dont want to. I feel like i've been pressured into it i hate having that feeling. I feel like everyone has expectations of me and ive been trying my whole life to live up to them but i just cant anymore. im breaking. i want to quit my job but my mom says i cant or i'll end up going to mt sac ( Read more... )

So i have like 5 days of school left and i dont know if im gonna make it. im too tired and too sick to do my homework and stay awake in class. but i need to cause like i said theres only 5 days. 5 days and the life i've known forever is over. 5 days and im free. no more high school group, no more useless projects, no more depending completely on my ( Read more... )

got a job today a ross. i'm excited because i have been looking fo a job forever. i'll be working in the men's department. should be intersting.
Didn't get into cal poly slo. just found out like 10 min. ago. i'm not as bummed as i thought i would be. i guess everything works out for the best.

It's strang how one stupid commercial during the superbowl can lead to you finding out how wrong you were about some people. how people you look up to and respected are hipicritical. totally unexpected. bad consequences also. stupid commercial.