How am I suppose to get over him, any suggestions. do I try this friend thing, do I cut him out of my life completely, do I just make him and acquaintance where I'm just civil whenever I see him? I can't think anymore. My heart and my brain need a vacation, they're starting to hurt

I want a supercool Icon. I dunno where to get them or how to make them.

Going to NYC tonight with Kelly, Matt and Erika. I wanna see if we can get tickets to see Rent

I got some awesome sleep last night. 11 hours, oh yea. Its the most sleep I've gotten since this whole thing started. Now its time for work. Blah.

Tonight I think I'm just gonna sit at home, maybe kelly will come over and watch movies with me

Everything has been pretty good lately. got to see Tim, Eric, Matt and Anthony the other day. We all went to mastoris'. it was good to talk to all them. I miss that. It was one thing I couldn't do when I was with mike.

I saw him yesterday, It was wierd he wants to go out on tuesday and go see dawn of the dead. I dunno If I should go or not

ok... so I decided to stop sitting at home and feeling sorry for myself.. I went out yesterday. I must say that I love my Kerry and Jen, those are my girls. they always know how to make me feel better. first thing we did was go out and get our nails done, yea yea yea, i know, what a girly thing to do. but i figured I'd give this long nail thing a ( Read more... )

I used to be your punk rock princess
you used to be my garage band king

I don't understand it... when I wanted attention, either sexual or just normal human attention. I couldn't get it from you... I would do everything i could just to get you to look at me, i'm not even gonna get into what I did to get you to touch me... But now that I want none of it from you anymore, you come at me like I'm a magnet... and of course ( Read more... )

i'm thinking maybe I shouldn't have bothered even meeting with him. becasue its already starting all over again. He just gave me that puppy dog face and I told him that we could still be friends. I'm already regreting doing that, what's wrong with me, why can't I just shut him out ( Read more... )

feeling a little better. I feel like my day is just going to go down hill from here though. I'm meeting up with him around 7 at applebees. I hate applebees. lets see what his excuses are this time... I dunno why I even agreed to meet with him, I should have walked away

the sad thing is when this is all done and over with I won't be mad at you. all you'll have to do is look at me with those big blue eyes and ask me to take you back and I will. Thats the kind of control you have over me. maybe one day i'll learn to over come that and maybe I will become a strong enough person to compeltely cut you out of my life. ( Read more... )