im not sure who reads these anymore. seems like if you want peoples input you need to put things on your myspace blogs but ive vowed to only use my myspace blogs for charities. lets see. brief update. ej and i are no longer together. im okay with it. i have to be. it was my choice. i do however miss the happy memories. they are slipping away ( Read more... )

 i had ahard night last night. i felt like everybody in my house was just ganging up on me. then this morning i went to count the money i gave my grandparents to hold onto for me, and immissing 178 dollars from it. so my grandmother bitched me out saying thati took it, and i go yeah im just a lying peice of shit right. and i was soo upset cus then ( Read more... )

so yeah. terrible day. i broke up with ej. im not going to go into reasons. it just wasnt working. so i broke up with him for now. were gonna tlak and everything and maybe some time down the road we'll get back together but me both including me have a lot of growing up to do. its crazy. its like my life is snowballing into badness. first the lyme ( Read more... )

hey there. so today was a good day symptom wise. i only got a few migranes and my boss at lucky loggers said that its been a few days since ive wined about how tired i am , so i must be feeling better. and im like um no. i feel worse its just that the lyme disease makes me so tired that i actualy sleep through the night. thats the only good thing. ( Read more... )

so the titles is optimisitc which im trying to be. but im having a hard time being strong. my docotor called me saturday about the test results. i have the early stages of lyme disease. they have to draw some blood tomorrow to decide weither or not to start treatment which is a three week antibiotic which i guess the side effects are very bad. and ( Read more... )

so yeah .i havent updated this. im also keeping a journal on my computer. heres the entries from those
as you can see its been alot i mean alot of drama. so i came up with a solution yesterday. instead of having to choose between the two people i loved, i was goin to get my own place. so i told ej that either he moves in with me or i get my own ( Read more... )

my moms beign all weird latlely. on second shes fine and happy and the next if i mention even going to the store or going to ejs she gets all like tense and ina bad mood. i dont know why shes taking this so hard. im not leaving the country. i dono. maybe i dont understand cus i dont have kids but its getting way too stressful, and ive been taking ( Read more... )

so yeah thats the update. work was crazy again today. i feel so drained. and i have huge black circles under my eyes :( but thats life. ej and i talked to robinand ejs dad and they are okay with the whole moving siuation, and ejs all like pumped for it. however momys not so much i told her that im moving on the 15th of november, and she got all sad ( Read more... )

EJ propsed, and i said yes... of course. the ring is simple and beautiful. exactly what i wanted. hehe im soooooo happy. at least until ill have tell my dad and brother, thats gonna be fun. well that about it., time to go get ready for my day. YAYAYAYAYAYYAYAY

hey everyone. sorry for not writing in so long, ive been writing in my myspace blog, but i added my mom as a friend, and theres some stuff like the funks ive been going through that i didnt want her to find out about that way so im using this again. today went okay. work was long but fun. im not in a funk so its good. i have karate tomrrow and work ( Read more... )