so today is soooo super stupid steve boring! i cant wait to go home in like 5 hours. wow so i actually showed up to field day last night thats the first time in a long time. i cleaned my room and manny's room it got messed up when he and doc got home anyways but i did get it cleaned ( Read more... )

well i had thanksgiving at Jose and Michelles house with Manny it actually went pretty good. i mixed the cool whip into the fruit salad, beat Joses ass in Tetris. and ate my entire plate of food i was very proud of myself. then after i left i went to a bonfire party with tiff it was ok i didnt drink but the guys did and tiffs boot got FUCKED up ( Read more... )

Yesterday was aweful i dont know whats wrong with me im so emotional lately everything seems to get to me. maybe its cause im about to get my period. who knows i actually forgot to take my pills yesterday so that could be why but i took them this morning and i still feel like the sky is falling. i hate that im always picked for these stupid events ( Read more... )

So im on duty righ tnow and though i get a three day weekend starting tomorrow it still sucks to be awake all night. i am so not a night person it is way past my bedtime right now. ill sleep a little tomorrow but im hangen out with tiff tomorrow so i wont get as much sleep as i require ill sleep late saturday morning ( Read more... )

so i got my blood taken the other day and they tell me it came back normal except for a couple things but they havent told me what yet. now i could get nervous about nothing or i can think its nothing and be shoked when i find out im dying or something. so i think ill think of the worst and pray for the best. i mean if theres something wrong we'll ( Read more... )

so i used up this weeks energy yesterday. i feel so drained today i guess i should have gotten more sleep last night oh well ill take a nap today when i get out of work. id like to sleep on my lunch break but i never seem to wake up in time to go back to work. i finally did some laundry last night its been like two weeks but luckily for me i have ( Read more... )

so manny finally told me he loved me but he wont say it back still he just kinda through it out there but its better then nothing i guess. i kinda like this one guy he has a motorcycle and i think thats way cool and gunny if your reading this you know who im talking about just dont say anything ok? and dont worry i wont corupt him:) well thats all ( Read more... )

So this guy im in love with i know he doesnt love me he lets me know all the time and know theres another guy that would love to be my boyfriend he's really great but is it really fair to him if im still in love with someone else? he wouldnt have all of me a part of me still belongs to Manny. Gosh i don't know what to do! i know what he wants me to ( Read more... )

i lost my hampster Cheese the other day he got away from me and hide under the bed for hours! oh well he was cute anyways. i wish this day would end i am so bored, im here all by myself with not a thing to do. i wish i could afford to bring my sister and cousin out here, ill settle for one cause i doubt i can have both so..... yeah

i hate going to work i hate waking up in the morning knowing that this is where ill spend my entire day. i actually feel pretty good right now mentally at least ive decided that im not going to give up on Manny but i am going to back up. i cant make him love me again but i can show him i love him and will be here for him if he ever decides he needs ( Read more... )