whew, i've had so much going on lately. last week i had to give a paper at a big, important librarian conference (that's supposed to be funny) in cincinnati, so the couple weeks leading up to that were pretty busy. plus, i've been dating this new guy in indy, TM, and it has gotten kinda serious really fast. so, that's another thing that has been ( Read more... )

wow, it's been a while, hasn't it? i've been so busy at work, and even after work. i seem to have stuff going on all during the week. tuesday, co-counseling. wednesday, bowling. thursday, japanese. etc. and aside from all that, not much worth mentioning has been going on ( Read more... )

today i had three hours to kill in the afternoon, before i came back to work the evening shift. i figured i'd just go to the gym, but when i got outside, it was so beautiful (after having rained all night). i went home, threw on my new cycling duds, threw my bike in the car, & went to campus. then i spent 75 glorious minutes riding on the new ( Read more... )

yesterday angeldust & i were leaving work together. as we got off the elevetor, i saw X, the 20-something son of one of my professor friends. i was talking to angel & i said, "hi, X." he looked at me intently & said, "i'm fine, how are you?" i was like, "fine, thanks," and kept talking to angel, but i felt like X was completely checking me out ( Read more... )

so, i started working out at the gym three weeks ago. i try to do weight training mon-wed-fri, and cardio tue-thu. i've gone to the geezer fitness center (aka "the adult fitness center," which happens to host quite a few older professors, as well as retirees) pretty religiously these past three weeks, except for when i've been out of town. my ( Read more... )

i am happy to say that i now have two co-counselors. (for anyone wondering what co-counseling or reevaluation counseling is, visit http://www.rc.org.) BTW, RC is NOT a cult, altho i think it may be practiced like a cult in some communities ( Read more... )

A nice sounding guy IM'ed me yesterday, asking for a good sushi restaurant in my town, b/c he is coming here on business (my yahoo public profile sez where I live & has the keyword sushi in it). He was very polite, I helped him with restaurant info, & we ended up chatting yesterday, twice. Then we've been chatting off & on this afternoon, & I had ( Read more... )

the more i think about my conversation with x. yesterday, the more i realize that i probably shouldn't take everything so personally. she is going through some shit that i cannot even begin to fathom....maybe the universe doesn't revolve around me, after all ( Read more... )

but in the past few months, i've been thinking that my alone-ness seems karmic. i wonder, WHY was i born into a family that is so emotionally fucked up & afraid of intimacy? what is the karmic reason??? could there be a reason that my soul CHOSE this family? and that i'm destined to struggle with overcoming this alone-ness ( Read more... )

i've been spending time think about x. and wondering if she's okay, worrying a little, etc. now i feel like i wasted all that emotional energy. threw it right out the window. what a gyp.

"what a gyp" is a phrase that has been cropping up in my consciousness a lot lately.