i hate porn... it makes sex dirty... and i'd just like to think that it's this magical thing that happens.... not whores getting ass fucked

i need a boy to make out with... i need a boy to love...

i'm depressed....

"Clever got me this far
Then tricky got me in
Eye on what i'm after
I don't need another friend
Smile and drop the cliche
'Till you ( Read more... )

"learning the only way you want me is dead"

i really wish that i had all the things i wished for.... i wish that i had someone to love me, a perfect home life... and all that jazz.....

i dont want money for myself... i like having money to spend on other people....

wow... that perm is getting worse and worse as these days go on.... god i love it ( Read more... )

today was an okay kind of day... i'm feeling a little better about my situation....

Tonight i had a busy night.... i had to go pick up my tire from the repair place or whatever one might call that.... and then i was told that i was required to go to the dentist (mother tends to make me random appointments without me knowing). Finally, i was ( Read more... )

i really wish i had someone i could fall in love with... but sadly i dont......

In so many ways, i'm glad im not in love.... i have seen so much heartbreak and pain with the love lives of my friends (and former friends) that i'm really not sure i can do that.... blah.... fuck it...

I miss the Ren. faire... and i know that in almost every entry i ( Read more... )

you really never know the type of person you are until someone lets you know.... i always thought i was a caring and helpful person, but lately i feel that my efforts to improve the lives of others has fallen on deaf ears....

tough love is a tough game to play... but it's worth it in the end

i've hung out with lyra and mallory alot over this crazy ( Read more... )

i've been so busy lately with work and school... i've really had no time to do anything other then sleep, work, and die... but whatever

why is it that you only care about youself, rather than the people who need you most?

Last night i hung out with Lyra.... lol, we ate so much fucking food... we also went bowling and shit.... we had so much fun... ( Read more... )

i miss faire... i miss everyone... i've been really busy lately (working 2 jobs and going to school and all) so i havent really been able to write...

Wow, people are so shady... i hate everyone

Why is she even going? She doesnt even listen to them..

life's hard when u have an ugly perm

It's so strange that the ren. faire is already over for the season....

I know i havent written in a long time, and it's really strange, cuz i get on here everyday just to check to see if anyone else has written....

I miss everyone already.. even the people that i hate

I'm really rather bored with the way my life is going.....

it makes no sense to me why Jay asked sharon to marry him.... to me, it just seems like he's trying to show everyone that he loves he, even though he really doesnt. It all just seems like some huge act... No one cares who you date, just dont make the biggest mistake of your life....

Your ( Read more... )

so much has happened.... my mom's cousin suddenly died this evening.. which totally tore my mother apart..... and that made me upset.... life is hard

sometimes i feel used in my life.... my emotions pushed around... my life is just as hard....

i realize more and more everyday that i hate myself.... the reaction of people to me is overwheming..... ( Read more... )