i doubt you still get on..even if you do that's kinda the point lol. iv been thinking a lot and the words that keep coming to mind are. i miss you. not in the i think everyday about it about lost friendship but in the way i see something or go somewhere that makes me think about you and remember i loved you once and still do. you were my best ( Read more... )

my brother and family are moving to arkansas....another part f his life that matches mine, and hes reacting just as i was scared to death he would. he cant handle it, i left on my own hes being forced.....he needs people even more than i do..and hes leaving his girlfriend, who he loves the one person holding his already fragile self together, i ( Read more... )

i have a new computer and i love it with all my heart and soul. dad got dsl so i FINALLY get to listen to my music that i havnt heard sense fucking august....it almost made me cry i was sooo amazingly happy, i cant believe how this music that took me so long to put together just made every bad thing in my life go away.....it really does heal my ( Read more... )

iv updated twice in the last week, both to myself. because i was mad and in pain when i wrote them, and it would have been cuel to make public what i had to say about a few people who....took away the smile that had finally shown up on my face, because i found out heather my friend from dallas may be visiting and possibly moving down here with me. ( Read more... )

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when i log onto livejournal, and open my friends page...i read every update even go over ones i have already read. i worry, sometimes i feel like crying, every once in awhile i feel intense anger. i think back to when livejournal was where we all kept in touche, we would just talk about our days, the occasional painful to read update, but its all ( Read more... )

well the trip down here was long and boring of corse. but once i got here i dont think i had one spare moment to think, but then again, i wasnt actually capable of thouht last night it was a party indeed. im now i guess, in a band as of 3am last night.my cousins boyfriend kinda interviewed me, it was pretty aquard but he said im exactly what he is ( Read more... )

i was assigned a project in economics, i had alot of choices but i chose the affects of pollution(on economy) i had no clue i would react this way. i have always known in the back of my head and even outloud that we are polluting and inevitably killing our world. but i let it go in a way, bitched alittle then moved on. But the pictures, the stories ( Read more... )

i dont really have anything to say but everyone tells me to update...so...here it is

ok may one thing...i kinda thought if i got on here the people i havt seen like billy(who i did see and he didnt say hi) and people like arce but whatever...

im in a room with jeff and my friend elizabeth and theyre drivin me crazy listening to meatloaf

kellys blowin up a strawberry flavored condom w my dad two doors down, it makes fucked up noises. we cant stop laughin and shit, its all wet and sticky but it tastes good. it can blow up pretty big. its pink and has a little nipple on the end. she really loves it i guess i know what to get her for her birthday...