i just got back from karens [therapy]. it was eh. i still have not talked to mike. and i am incredibly worried. yesterday i talked to dan and nick [laugh]. but not mike. which is making me fall appart. i cannot live correctly without him. i need to talk to him, i need to hear his voice, anything. but i dont know where the fuck he is. this is way ( Read more... )

fart. i called dan, we talked, about mike i guess. lily, call if you get this sometime before i call you [laugh]... i have been sitting upon my ass since 12;30... i really need to go to denmark soon. last day of school was today, everyone was like "ohmahgawd im never going to see you again" when theyre like going to their house tomorrow. ya. i just ( Read more... )

fuck. i am in a sad state. the fact that mike does not love anymore just hit me. and i am in pain. and i am fucking scared. this really is not healthy. this really is not normal. mike always said i would be the one to 'dump' him. i always testified against that, and i swore to him that i would always be with him and that i would always love him. he ( Read more... )

laugh; im listening to war pigs- lily riki molly and uh whom ever, remember when jordan mike dan matt brough ... ect used to always play this. just an update. giggle. i blow.

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work it.

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The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScorePurgatory (Repenting Believers)Very LowLevel 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)LowLevel 2 (Lustful)HighLevel 3 (Gluttonous)LowLevel 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)LowLevel 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)HighLevel 6 - The City of ( Read more... )

i really dont feel the need for friends anymore, it just always turns into lack of maturity. i dont feel the need for human attension. i do not want anyone to bother me. i am content with all this vexation. i do not need to live outside of me; for i need to live inside. i need to figure myself out, before i fucking figure everyone else out. i am ( Read more... )

i miss when he franticly screamed i love you so much emily.