So for all of you who do not know, but read my journal.. here is the scoop.

For the whole month of February I was having a menstrual cycle that was out of this world, could not deal with it at all. So.. my solution was to go to the doctor and figure out how I could fix this. The doctor did some blood work and it came back normal except for my Factor ( Read more... )

and i'm done forever, it's you and me forever.

i make myself sick and dreadful.
i stay up at night and look at her pictures and compare myself to her.
i wonder how strong your feelings were for her.
and i cant help but cry every time i do it.
love makes me sick.
i dont know what to do with myself when i get into this state of mind.
nothing he says or ( Read more... )

i am just crying right now. im not unhappy. i just feel overwhelmed because i hate thinking that sometimes he does still love her and that i'm inferior and i have competition with someone with such much history. it just makes me want to move away and forget everything. but sometimes he just makes me so content and so happy and i love it. but i hate ( Read more... )

I have never had so much tension built up in my shoulders before and I've never had so many random people who mean nothing to me trying to tug on me and have me all to themselves. And the one person who I do care about I feel like is so caught up in not knowing what he's doing with himself and he is wanting to live in a place that will eventually ( Read more... )

So.. I haven't written in here in a while. Life has been crazy, but good.
I have the love of my life and he is so wonderful and makes me so happy and we have just come such a long way in such a small amount of time.
I get excited every time I think about what might happen in the future while I'm with him.
Working sucks, it gives me a headache and ( Read more... )

I bitch and moan and complain and bitch some more.
And you haven't left yet.
And although we already have our quirks
We must mean something to each other if we've put up with each other this much
Even though it's been a short amount of time.

I can't believe I'm capable of saying this...

But I'm kind of excited about going back to school.
A sense of dread ( Read more... )

if you want more than what you got, then go out and get it.

BUT GODDAMN,
YOU CAN'T HAVE YOUR CAKE AND EAT IT TOO.

ughhhhh.

and i dont.
sweet, so its settled.

i found some hilarious pictures

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i'm and it's a school night and  i'm the daughter of a frustrated father who thereatened to call the cops on me and i'm at yuliyas and i'm with jeramy and i'm real mad at him because i'm not of fan of lying because i'm one who has been lied to plenty and i'm having to get up at the crack ass of dawn and i'm not sure where i'm sleeping tonight ( Read more... )