Ever have those dreams that just make you want to throw up upon awakening?

I swear to God this town is decaying by the day. Living here, it's like there is this barrier that keeps me from thinking about the future. Mostly past, some present. I need to get out.

Reflecting: v. 2. Given to reflection or serious consideration; reflective; contemplative; as, a reflecting mind.

one of my favorite words.

So tonight I went out with my mom for dinner and I finally realized that we will never ever have a positive relationship. I tried so hard to get her to make even a slight step towards mending our relationship but she just sat their and chewed and gave me the same dumb, annoying facial expressions and semi sarcastic shrugs she always when she knows ( Read more... )

Ever have those songs that you can just fucking relate to every goddamn word? They sing to you, persay...well I'll go ahead and say that I have plenty, but this one that right now...tonight...I can 100% relate to 100% of the words in this song.

I'm free now to direct a movie ( Read more... )

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I'm destined to be alone.

iamthe kaai: i got really drunk last night. i slept on my floor. i wrote like 3 pages of the most depressing shit ever. i drew a sad picture and i wanted to kill someone ( Read more... )

Everynight I've been drinking by myself and all I've been listening to is Red House Painters. Seriously the older I get the more their first album affects me in a way no other album even comes close to. Everytime I listen to it, the nostalgic vocals and haunting chords break me down and beat me, and at the same time almost comfort me. Every night ( Read more... )

Its such a nice day outside.

I should be out at a park right now, but I'm stuck inside a cubicle chopping up images :/

Blah.

Dear Matt,

stop searching for perfection, you'll only be let down.

You decide your own level of happiness.

Be happy.

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That being said, I have about 10 hours of video footage of random things from the past 4 years, which Im about to upload/edit and compile into a 20 minute music video, to tweak my video-editing

How can you be yourself if you don't know who you are?