Its a word thats been giving a lot of responsibility, a bit of stability; and yet somehow it terrifies me ( Read more... )

 What you see is what you get, Look at me and DONT FORGET..

well
I don't care how many guys hit on you at the bar, it doesn't validate being beautiful or "sexy" .

Dear Live-Journal,
I am about to be honestly raw, so please don't take sympathy on me.

but Recently I am really at my wits end, I am not sure why I feel like the ocean of depression and rip ( Read more... )

 Pretending can be nice, until you remember its only the fake reality of your wishes and wants. It's all make believe ( Read more... )

 I know I am werid,

because truth-fully live journal

I am lying to everyone.
I find myself at my Exs house at 2 am, after its all said and done. the naughty-naughty I am laying there in his arms and I ask him for some advice on some man problems. He tells me to pick the bartender, and i have to agree with him. This is until I get a lovely voice mail ( Read more... )

 I am not happy ( Read more... )

 Theres Something about being alone that I loathe, I guess thats why I am sitting here on vacation by myself alone in Califorina. It was overcast when I got here, and The ride on the plane from San Fran was terrifying, The Plane sat only 30 and I had to walk down the hallway and onto the run way, i felt like an old movie star because yours truley ( Read more... )

Why would you do that?
That is the question of today,
and really i havn't the answer;
"I am self destructive" 
atleast I answer honestly.

All I can do today is wallow, I wish it was freezing outside. If it was nice and warm I could be doing what my heart is doing right now, float. Ceize to do anything, My brain is kicking the shit out of my heart. Steal ( Read more... )

When I think about writing it all down than I remember it makes it all real and that is the scary scary scary part... Itd be a lot easier to let you all see the ridiclous events that seem to pan out around me and in my life, itd make it easier to ask you if this is all really all my falut? or if youd understand? Would you ( Read more... )

  I'll write a nice update in aprox 6 hours! And not from my phone

 Silly, silly girl ( Read more... )