nothing exciting is happening,winter is slowly moving on by, i only recognize the months are changing because I keep filling out rent checks. I am going to a doctors office tomorrow for the first time in 5 years, i am only going because I want Adderall. 

Its when you dump me for the second time i guess i should put it as ''dump'' because it wasn't for real. but at the same time as i hit the lowest moments i've been awhile i only just keep plummeting downward. I stand at the door and try and reason with you and i keep myself from snickering when you say your gonna call the cops. and you dont call ( Read more... )

George keeps coming up in conversation.
I hate it
Brian leaves in a week
and I just want to read a good book
smoke weed
drink tea
and wake me when its summer time and ive got
''ambitions''

im working on vet-tech-certification.
in the joys of one day telling nED its over

One day I'll grow up, One day I'll be hole
and this suffering is only temporary.
just temporary.

I just want to close my eyes and when
they open future me is not scolding
past me, but this is the cycle my life is on.
permant press
and the dryer is broken.

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Sometimes boys are stupid and they don't really think about the things they are saying. For example Today has been pretty stupidly-shitty. Aside the fact I only smoked 4 cigarettes today and went for a run. The run cancels out any bad feelings about the cigarette smoking. So Brian and I go out to dinner and as we are leaving dinner he pulls out the ( Read more... )

Im scared to fall in love with you

because

deep down to the core;

im rotten.

hair - thebeautydepartment.com

 im miserable ( Read more... )

 Its SUMMER time!

its finally here, with the sun hitting my face ever so lightly, for moment I close my eyes and imagine I am beautiful. For that moment and than I remember I am at work and I need to get the shopping cart and bring it back in. Also the lyric '' and the sun hit her body like an ugly landscape".

( everything for a SCANDELIOUS, Summer! )