Well, if anyone out there actually reads my journal, this thing probaby doesn't make any sense because I haven't updated it in so long. Today, I had really high expectations about me and Jon, but I found out (after being happy about something for the first time in over a week) that those expectations were based on lies. And now I know that there ( Read more... )

Well, I'm just sitting here...ozzfest tickets go on sale in 15 minutes...I can't wait to go. I'm talking to Tyler...our conversation got wierd for a minute...details later.

Caitlin and I went out this weekend...shopping...got our nails done...and then decided to go to Hobo's. I saw Jon. After spending about an hour trying to hide from him, I finally decided to just take my ass upstairs and see what happened. The second Jon saw me, he came right to me, no hesitation. We ended up talking all night long, it was so ( Read more... )

Caitlin and I went out this weekend...shopping...got our nails done...and then decided to go to Hobo's. I saw Jon. After spending about an hour trying to hide from him, I finally decided to just take my ass upstairs and see what happened. The second Jon saw me, he came right to me, no hesitation. We ended up talking all night long, it was so ( Read more... )

I miss Jon so fucking much. I would give anything in this whole god damn world to have him back.

Ralph called me today...said he'd lost his pager working the damn Perfect Circle concert that I didn't get to go to, but Lici did. Just like that damn Manson concert...he wanted me to come down to "the house" tonight as he always puts it, but I turned him down as usual. He wanted me to come do something this weekend...but I know Jon will be there ( Read more... )

It's such a pretty day outside. Its warm and sunny. I just wish that I had someone special to share it with. I wish I didn't have to waste it at work.

It's such a pretty day outside. Its warm and sunny. I just wish that I had someone special to share it with. I wish I didn't have to waste it at work.

I know just a few hours ago, I was happy. Now I just wish I could cry. Ralph called me...and I heard Jon's voice in the background. I just wish that there was somebody I could talk to, who would understand how I feel. I just wish I could get over Jon. I don't know why I can't. I sat in my room and thought about him for a long time. I want ( Read more... )

Well, I have had a very good weekend so far! Last night, me and Jason took JR out to Yesterday's. We had a great time, me and Jason got SO drunk. I had 4 shots of Jack Daniels and I was good for the night ( Read more... )