Comments | sikolto: I Am A Stranger To Myself

sikolto

I Am A Stranger To Myself

Feb 15, 2008 01:33

I have been having many strange days lately. For me this is not a good thing because it is a sure sign of impending deep depression. I know for a fact that Once I get over this horrible mania that I am on that I am going to surely going to crash and burn. I just hope that I can express this before It consumes me like a fire out of control. It ( Read more... )

hopelessness, mania, alone, fear, anxiety

Comments 10

you're not alone diaphoni February 15 2008, 09:48:24 UTC

I'm dealing with a lot of the same things, I see the same 'shadow' people, when I'm most manic, I think they're ghosts not delusions.
It suck, this waiting for disability thing, how do they expect us to survive in the mean time?
if we do, we prove to them we don't need help...if we don't, we're homeless and on the streets or a burden to a loved one.

*hugs*
J

Re: you're not alone sikolto February 22 2008, 04:59:18 UTC

Yeah, They expect you to just fall in between the cracks and just never pursue the matter any further. ;-) I have a lot of patients.

SIK

dangerduckie21 February 15 2008, 10:38:46 UTC

Hey, even if you are delusional it doesn't mean you're an idiot - look at John Nash, with his schizophrenia yet also a nobel prize in math...these experiences don't negate intelligence.

Hang in there, remember - there is always a path out of Hell even if it takes some time to find it *hugs*

sikolto February 22 2008, 05:01:28 UTC

LOL D, the thing is, there are more people who are very intelligent that are in some kind of therapy than those in denial.

At least we don't hide behind the facod of a "Normal" life.

My Best To You,

SIK

rollingsuitcase February 15 2008, 13:26:46 UTC

I was there off and on for 2 years, in and out of the psych ward. Almost lost everything, but miracles happen and I somehow got out. Also, my disability came through right when we were about to be evicted. So, there's hope, and I'm hoping things get better for you too.

(((( R )))) sikolto February 22 2008, 05:05:01 UTC

Thank you for your words of support. There is a great line from the original "Bat Man" Movie. "Crazies Don't Scare Me, At Least They're Committed".

Hey, It works for me, ;-)

SIK

killereyes65 February 15 2008, 19:17:57 UTC

while battling my own demons and waiting for disability i had to go on public assistance. i felt really bad about it but it got me thru until my disability was approved. just a thought

Public Assistance sikolto February 22 2008, 05:11:07 UTC

That is where I am at now. Of course they do not want you to work, but they expect you to be able to survive.

Luckily for the moment I have my former employer, who's name I can't say (H*ME D3P*T) insurance that is paying for my disability but I know that a good thing is not going to last forever.

Oooohhh.... The whoas of being a nut case. He he he he (Big Cheesy Grin)

I send you my best,

(Always ) SIK

steshaluna February 19 2008, 02:37:56 UTC

You're in my thoughts.

Thanx sikolto February 22 2008, 04:56:52 UTC

Hey Ms S:

Thank you very much... You don't know what it means to me to hear that and people understand.

SIK