Don't put your guards down and don't let the seagulls fool you

[silent_crow]

Today's morning seemed to be promising. I woke up with no nightmares.

My head was clear. I felt as a person who had been on the bed-rest for ages & now, he was allowed to stand up...and stand up on his own feet.

I was in a good mood (not maniac), I listened to Glass Skin over and over & enjoyed my big mug of tea on the balcony. I even finished

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[sick_pride]

I have no words left for this. Not a single one, and this won't help you, yes I know this.

sometimes I hate people.

[cateris]

...I'm just staring at this entry and I have no idea what I'm supposed to say

[sick_pride]

It's not your fault. Their cruelty and brutality are not your fault. Please, go and talk with your doc. Please.

[silent_crow]

I did. I went to see him this morning. I feel better now. The hardest part was getting the courage to leave my place.

[sick_pride]

Have some tea, dear. Seriously? Leaving your place is a big step, just as talking to him. I'm glad you managed, I really am.

How's your eye?

[feelthefalling]

Oh honey, I feel so worried about you. Scared because you say this is not the first time. But oh gods the relief that you got out of it relatively okay. Please don't feel ashamed about all this. It's not your fault and you don't deserve something like that.

I wish I could just do something more than this to help.

[silent_crow]

You're here, saying me these kind words.

I am trying to convince myself that I was lucky, indeed. I could get hurt much more. The worst feeling is this...helplessness. When they were around me and I knew I couldn't do anything.

I am still trying to understand that it didn't happen in the evening or at night and somewhere in a side street where no one would see anything - normally, you expect no harm or danger during the day, don't you...

The policeman whom I talked to yesterday said that these children gangs are the worst ones because the kids know they won't be put into a jail when they're 12. And he also told me that he already knows some of the kids who attacked me and that they were no kids from some poor family, so they don't do such things for money. They're just bored and think it's big fun.

Thank your for your words, once again.

[melinen]

;_____;

*hugs real tight* Dear, that's awful. I'm so glad that you survived it, well, at least that well. And I wish you wouldn't have gone through it... Life sucks sometimes. And those children... they deserve a big punishment! If only I could have been there with you, or something.

If there's anything I can do, listening definitely included, please don't hesitate to ask. *hugs again*