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the fury, it burns
it does, precious, it does! I'm so fucking sick of my fellow Christians going ape over the Golden Compass. They're like nervous little puppies peeing on the carpet of literature. Anyway, I posted this bulletin on my myspace after seeing a bulleting about TEH EVILZ of Philip Pullman.
"For the last time, The Golden Compass is not atheistic. It will ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: Pickup Artist
Male: "I'm trying to seduce you so we can be hermits together."
Me: "Hermits are celibate."
Male: "Not this hermit."
Me: "I don't want to be a hermit."
Male: "Oh."
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well, crap.
So far I have a C in Old Testament Lit, and that's assuming I got a 100 on my Job paper. Damn. Must. Study. Harder ( Read more... ) -
well
I took Ben's suggestion and went for a walk. There were crunchy leaves and I stepped on them. It helped a little. I went down to the town library and I would have gotten a library card, but the grumpy librarian said I had to have two kinds of picture ID on me. WTF? Why the hell do they need two kinds of picture ID for a freakin' library card? ( Read more... ) -
Jesus, I'm really losing it.
I feel like an alien inhabiting someone else's body. I feel so distant from everything and I'm not sure how much longer I can take this.
I'm lonely, but I don't feel like talking. I know I should make myself leave my room, but I don't want to. I'm tired of pretending to be cheerful when I see someone I know.
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still depressed. i feel like crying constantly, but i have nothing to cry about. i just feel so damn sad and lonely and empty. i want someone to put their arms around me and tell me i'm worth something. i want my hair to grow back from where i've pulled it out ( Read more... ) -
oh man
head hurts. like, i want to smash it in with my laptop. blood and gray stuff will go everywhere and it will be grotesque. i think it hurts because i ran out of wellbutrin and i'm going through withdrawal, but i'm not sure. all i know is, damn. pain ( Read more... ) -
gray
Depression is creeping up on me. He's been on the prowl for days now, and I'm not sure how much longer I can run. My entire world is in shades of gray; there's no sunlight today. It's cloudy and rainy and I have many things I should be doing. I don't want to go to the cafeteria because I don't want to talk to anyone. I'd have to pretend to be ( Read more... ) -
amazing
It's amazing how your entire day can go to shit in the span of five minutes. I am in such a supremely foul mood that I don't even feel like explaining what happened. Actually, I'm not really angry. I'm just moody. I'm telling myself "I told you so" and that is never a very pleasant experience. I'm laughing at myself for getting my hopes up. I ( Read more... )
