Sometimes it's easier to just be numb. Thinking is so complicated. I hate the fact that there's a future. And that it's happening to me. I don't want to have a future. I'm not ready to go to college. I'm not ready to decide what I'm going to do for the rest of my life. One one decision. It doesn't seem right. Argh. I wish it weren't Senior year. I ( Read more... )

That is all.

So I wrote my big essay today. First draft. I sent it to Mrs. Caine (my college counselor). I hope it's good, but how can you be good enough for Stanford? Yuck. I'm sick of stress. It's disgusting. But, I was able to sleep last night, so that was good. The grandparents are coming tomorrow!!!!! I can't wait! Today was my dad's birthday, so that was ( Read more... )

Life was so much easier when I was a blissful underachiever. Planning on applying to all "plus" colleges (guarantees)... ahh those were the days. I'm doing my Stanford early app every day all day. And when I stop working on it to go to bed I keep waking up to worry about it. I just want to get in. Why can't I be some crazy minority like Native ( Read more... )

So, it's been awhile since a post. And it's past midnight, so I'm not going to do a real post now. Even though I want to. Quick version of what I would say if I weren't completely exhausted: Mexico+"Earthquakes and Sharks"+"High School Musical"=complete awesomeness. Good night, and good luck.

I have to go to bed early cas I'm getting up at 4 tomorrow for my flight to Steubie, and I am already way too tired, but what would be a good trip without a farewell adress? Here's the abbreviated version: Disneyland was pretty much awesome. John didn't end up coming, so we kept thinking about him like, every 2 minutes. It was sad. But the day was ( Read more... )

What would you say if I asked you not to go ( Read more... )

Ok, I love these lyrics, but I don't quite understand them. Please help me out.

Really weird. Today Lucky and I were walking in the canyon and we were all alone and all of the sudden I had this feeling that it was the best day of my life. Which is weird, because today was a completely average day (or maybe a bit above average since it was the last day of classes). I have no idea why I felt that way. It felt so cool to be alone ( Read more... )

Leaving for Mexico tomorrow. WAY too much to do. There's only 4 days of school left before finals, and I'm the most completely stressed I've been all year. In those 4 days of school, I have a 5-7 page research paper due, a debate to prepare for, an AA response paper, an English essay to write, and I have to finish my journal. Is that not freaking ( Read more... )