School needs to end. Period. Apparently we're losing the popular vote on our debate on illegal immigration, even though we have presented all kinds of facts and the other team has presented absolutely nothing but an extremely weak ethical appeal. But that's ok, because Coach DaLuz thinks we're winning. I just want it to be over, win or lose, so I ( Read more... )

It's really hard to do my homework. It seems so small, so insignificant compared to so many other words and feelings. I have to try my hardest to dig in for three more weeks and just forget about life. Like I need another excuse to ruin my life. Like I ruined it to begin with. There's so many things that we never have control over and that sucks. ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wish I could just shrug off my conscience for one night. I have to go to an aa meeting with Sean. My sister and I went to Abercrombie today. I found a polo I loved. It was $50. I didn't buy it. John came over. We played basketball. I wish school was over. Only 11 more days, but it feels like there's no way I'll make it out alive.

So I'm really into this song right now. The funny thing is, it's the lyrics that make the song amazing to me, but I absolutely hate alcohol. So it's kinda a paradox that I like this song. I can't relate to it at all, yet at the same time I feel like in some strange way I can completely relate. So that's kinda trippy. See alcohol-infested lyrics ( Read more... )

7 hours working on group project this weekend. Stupid computer randomly deletes it. I spend the rest of my weekend trying to recover/redo the presentation. (btw, I lost my sweatshirt at school today, and Mrs. Beyer just called and said she found it. How nice is that?) It's weird to write about some stuff, even when you write it in a personal ( Read more... )

I wanna have the same last dream again ( Read more... )

I don't want to go to college. I want to go. I don't want until then. I hate the idea of there being a future. I'm scared about going away. And about picking the right place. And finding true love. Sure, it's cliche, but just you wait. Someday it'll come ( Read more... )

Definately in a huge Jesus Christ Superstar mood right now. I love musicals! They rock my world. I wish I hadn't been a flippin loser freshman and sophomore year who was too scared to audition for the school musicals. Tomorrow I have an appointment with my college counselor to talk about my future that I'm trying to will out of existance. Time for ( Read more... )

Abandoned. Very creepy movie. But artistically creepy. Know what I mean? Like, it could be a book. It's kind of like Unfaithful kind of creepy. It's the kind of movie that starts off the very beginning with the opening credits on a black screen and the ominous, one piano key at a time kind of music, and you know it's gonna be creepy, but you have ( Read more... )

That I don't die from lack of sleep. Too much homework. Too much stress. Haven't been able to do a Kairos update yet, but I will sometime ( Read more... )