So today work went really shitty and I hate being there now. I guess its because I am dealing with stuff in my personal life... I just don't feel like getting anything done. Don't know if I am just being extra sensitive over things but I want to cry when I am alone. Memories of Gus come rushing to my head every time I want to close my eyes for bed ( Read more... )

Let life in ( Read more... )

Let me close my eyes and fantasize ( Read more... )

Was going through my files and came across this....think I wrote this 2 months ago. Guess I need to vent some feelings ( Read more... )

My weekend ( Read more... )

We are not compelled to meditate by some outside agent, by other people, or by God. Rather, just as we are responsible for our own suffering, so are we solely responsible for our own cure. We have created the situation in which we find ourselves, and it is up to us to create the circumstances for our release.

-Lama Thubten Yeshe, "Wisdom Energy"

I just watched the movie "Monster Ball" on HBO. Thought it was a good movie and everyone was right about the love scenes, yuck!! But I also think it was necessary for how the characters were being developed in some way. Wow...those were some bad love scenes...awkward to watch. I think they wanted to make it awkard on purpose, it just fits into the ( Read more... )

Ok so my ass should be in bed but, I have a few things on my mind that I need to talk about. SLEEP....who needs sleep, a great man once said "I'll live while I'm alive and sleep when I'm dead." LOL. Damn. Anyways, have you ever felt that you were living a pattern over and over again. Just going around in circles with your life and emotions... ( Read more... )

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So much on the mind but yet can't seem to write it down, why is that? I have been really lacking on my journal because I haven't been able to write for awhile. I can't sleep at night...I toss and turn all night...can't seem to find my comfort zone. Lately every time I eat, I feel sick to my stomach...hope I am not getting an ulcer. Depression is ( Read more... )