so yeah i start my ritalin tomorrow.. that should be interesting... i hope it fucking doesn't make me lose too much weight... my neurologist only put me on 5 mg to see if i lose any weight and then up my dosage... i really don't wanna turn into Ashley and Katie D with aderal and stop eating and become a rail.. consdering i'm like already what 96 ( Read more... )

okaaaaaaaaay i need to start fillling out apps for collegio... i'm thinking UoH now.... or roger.. hoooooooooooooollllllllllllllaaaaaaaaaaaaa ( Read more... )

i feel so trapped. i don't know what to do... i'm lost again. always lost forever.

meh. i'm tired....i was fucking ripped out of my mind today... i couldn't feel my legs ahHAhahaHAha. I have no fucking idea what i wanna do with my life.... i hope i don't make a stupid decision.. i think i kind of wanna stay at WestConn partially for Derek :( and because i have no idea what i wanna do but i'm afraid if i don't leave when everyone ( Read more... )

fuck. IT'S ALWAYS MORNING IN MY MIND MY LITTLE LAMB MY PET JOHAAAAAAAAAAANNA.. YOU STAY JOHANNA THE WAY I DREAMED YOU ARE OH LOOK JOHANNA A STAR. A SHOOTING STAR ( Read more... )

I don't understand myself.... I've finally gotten what I finally wanted yet.. I still feel incredibly depressed lost and empty. I feel so selfish now all those people who want love and i think i've probably found it.. but then again how do i know if i did... i don't understand life.. i feel like dying.kdjsfksjfdsf ( Read more... )

WHY THE FUCK IS EVERYONE FUCKING WITH MY FUCKING HEAD!!!!!!

I THINK I've FINALLY FUCKING GONE INSANE.

THANKS DEREK.

my eyess burnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn............from these tears you think you'd learn over these years ( Read more... )

Bleh. I constantly feel way too confused.. sometimes I wonder if Derek makes me happier or more depressed. I mean sometimes i feel like he makes me soo happy which he does, but sometimes how he is makes me want to fucking kill myself literally. Hmph. I hate when he friggin ignores what I say sometimes when I ask him questions... again tonight of ( Read more... )

I think i've made about 43095045904 accounts.. and i can never seem to remember any of them at all... so hopefully i will remember this one. I got fucking bored again so i decided to make this ( Read more... )