Meh. I didn't even realize how much I drank last night ( Read more... )

I didn't go to bed at all last night. Literally. I watched my OC dvds with cashula sleeping with me until 5:30 when my mom came storming into my room during " The Nana Cohen" episode god. Start bawling to me about how I'm completely nuts and there's something wrong with me cause I don't sleep ya de ya da ya da... how it's not humanly possible to ( Read more... )

So yesturday was New Years Eve....ummm worst new years EVER. I should of fucking went to a party with my friends, but nooooo I decide to stay with my stupid boyfriend because he told me he would be upset if he didn't get to kiss me at midnight. So fine, I go to Derek's at 10, and what does he do for an hour? Plays a video game. I mean I was kind of ( Read more... )

I dyed my hair eggplant. I would post a picture but.... I don't know how ALAS. It's not really eggplanty eggplanty.. it is more like eggplanty in the light ( Read more... )

Too much emotional swing.

Step down into sand,
water carries us from here.

Let me out of my head. Too much chaos.

I hate this stupid heart halter monitor on me. I wanna rip it off. sdkjfksjfs

I'm never gonna accomplish anything. Nothing is working for me. I need a higher dosage of Ritalin right now... 10mg. PLEASE. SOMEONE. HELP. ME.

nope.

I can never tell if things are in my head or not ( Read more... )

So yeah i think this ritalin is working ( Read more... )

So Sarah got Derek that really cool knife online ... which by the way I wanted to buy derek a knife for his birthday and i bluntly told her that... but anyways so she got him this sick knife and purposely tries to compete with me to get a better gift than me I FUCKING KNOW IT. I thought the book i got him was nice but now i'm afraid to give it to ( Read more... )

this paranoia needs to stop.........

......i can't live like this anymore.