Well I never comment alot here,but I do have to say that I am thinking of you. Out of all the people who still update their journals,I've gained a little bond with you. I could honestly say that was a little freaked out when you stopped updating a couple of months back. The point is I'd miss you too much. I want you to feel much better,I hope you do get professional help. I have faith in you,and wish you all the best.
Hey, please remember Jordan, that you need not be afraid of seeking help, afterall the people are there to try resolve things and make you feel much much better. I know a fair few people who have cut in the past and that alone scares me.. but if I were to see you go I'd miss you HEAPS.. I'd hate that :( Just know that there are people out there who think of you, and would love to see ya get better :)) *Hug!*
i know but it is hard to do.. you know. I will though, i have to. it's really just not about my feelings, it's about everyone who cares about me. thank you for caring hun. :) *huggies* xox
Jordan, you don't have to feel alone. Seek help. If not for yourself but for those around you. You serve purpose in this world - people out there need you, want you, love you. Don't be scared, ok? I've been close to where you are before and I know how it is to stand on that line, looking at yourself in a slowmo replay from afar.
thank you. i realise that it's not just about me, it is about other people, it's just so hard to think about anyone but yourself when you want to die so badly. that is why it is so selfish. *warm embrace back*
cutting yourself as a means of temporary relief is not a solution. don't give up on yourself, jordan.
what makes you afraid to seek profession help? i think it would be great. you would get put in the hands of people who have dealt with cases like yours (please excuse my bluntness) and know what they're doing. i think you should at least try.
thank you hun :) i know in the end it doesn't solve anything, and i hate doing it. it makes me feel worse and embarassed and it's harder for me to get better just because of the emotions i create when i do, do it. Because i have been through alot of counsellors, psycharists, psychologists, the lot. and really none of the times have helped. it's hard to have faith in something that has let you down so much. but i know i have to keep trying, and maybe this time because i really do want to be happy and text book "normal" that it will work. heres hoping. :)
i know i just had to realise that i did want to live bad enough. it's weird though because sometimes i really want to die so badly, but i want to live so badly as well. i'm screwed up! =/
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Mucho amor porque te lo mereces.
-joel
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I know a fair few people who have cut in the past and that alone scares me.. but if I were to see you go I'd miss you HEAPS.. I'd hate that :(
Just know that there are people out there who think of you, and would love to see ya get better :)) *Hug!*
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*huggies*
xox
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It's for the best, and u do deserve the best :))
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I'm sorry I can't do more for you.
*warm embrace*
-la niña bruja
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*warm embrace back*
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what makes you afraid to seek profession help? i think it would be great. you would get put in the hands of people who have dealt with cases like yours (please excuse my bluntness) and know what they're doing. i think you should at least try.
i'm so sorry you're going through this.
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thank you hun :)
i know in the end it doesn't solve anything, and i hate doing it. it makes me feel worse and embarassed and it's harder for me to get better just because of the emotions i create when i do, do it. Because i have been through alot of counsellors, psycharists, psychologists, the lot. and really none of the times have helped. it's hard to have faith in something that has let you down so much. but i know i have to keep trying, and maybe this time because i really do want to be happy and text book "normal" that it will work.
heres hoping. :)
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