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i am, until tomorrow evening, staying at my grandmothers. i like the old fashioned food and the seaside but could really probably do without the crosswords and religious documentaries. but, hey, it is a break. a break from lazing around and sleeping and drawing and socialising. half of me LOVES my life right now, and half of me really really needs ( Read more... )

how i hate relationships. 
well at least the beginning parts anyway.
he seems to be on the same wavelength as me but i just don't know.i can't decide whether i want it or not. its ridiculous but i dont even think i do! which is silly. because i want something. i just don't know what. i have made excuses for myself. im pretty sure he thinks im an ( Read more... )

sometimes i think, is there anyone else in my situation? you always think there must be, but when it actually comes down to it, i wish i could speak to someone with the same issues as me ( Read more... )

i am back.

it really makes you appreciate home when you go somewhere so drasically different from home.turkey was beautiful though. such a brilliant holiday. i flew out the day after my birthday and stayed for a week in our gorgeous appartment. 48 degrees was pretty much a contstant. i am, i think, the most tanned i have ever been in my entire life ( Read more... )

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beautiful.

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everything is extremly okay.
and then on the otherhand dreadful.

the party was okay.
i just wanted to get out of there by the end.
people came back to mine. and then slowly left. 
then it was just us.
he stayed here.
we watched a film and generally talked. went to bed at around 4.

it was nice, felt like we were actually friends again, not awkward.

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today i am going balloon shopping. i want balloons in all shapes, sizes, colours, and textures.
my psychology exam was awful, the four things that i hadn't revised ( out of about 25!!) all came up in the test, so i was pretty much screwed.
but i am so relieved it's over.
 i wish i had a way of not being nervous about my party on saturday. i am making ( Read more... )

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