-name: Christina ( Read more... )

okay the ringtone for my phone has been playing over and over and over again in my head. i keep looking at my phone and it isnt really ringing. but in my mind it keeps getting louder and louder and louder. should i be concerned?

it starts

and no one needs to know

i do this for me
and for me alone!

and if anyone has any problem. they can kiss my ass!

i feel free!

and better

and i feel a work out comming on tonight!

as of today...i am no longet a slave to my insecurities. i love myself for who i am and anyone who does not is of no bother to me. i am a happy strong person who loves my life and myself and no one can tell me differantly. my weight today is : 185lbs. i will lose. i will lose...run now...

so that was a bad case of food poisoning. at least thats what i believe it was. i'm actually pretty positive. i blame bad judgement sunday night. but yeah i had to work at 9:30 yesterday morning. ha ha ha there was no way. but i had to go. so i went in and they told me to go home at 10. i looked like shit according to Sean. who by the way was right ( Read more... )

Christina ( Read more... )

we have had coffee twice how can someone tell. ugh. i like him. at least i was starting to. but it looks like it is all over. fuck it. i guess i am just friend material

okay so today is my second official date with Jason. i am uber excited. we were suppost to be going to lunch at least that is what we have had planned since friday but now i called him this morning like at 10 and he said oh i thought we would just have coffee is that okay? uhhh. sure why the hell not. here i am stressing about making a good ( Read more... )

you know i have been useing that phrase a lot lately....and i wonder to myself why. what does it matter the way i see something. i see myself and think oh there is nothing really wrong with me, but thats not true. i am fat and ugly and the world knows it. i feel outside myself when i am at work and with other people. i really need to just fast and ( Read more... )

i post way too much about guys. but seriously until i find a sutor for myself that is all i ma after in life. someone i can call mine. anyway....tonight laura and i went to dinner and we went to her boyfriends work. well her boyfriends boss...like 22 year old guy. so cute. was totaly checking me out all night :) so i ended up giving KC-laura's ( Read more... )