Day one of Operation Stop Being A Bum! has been a total success. My morale is high, lot of hope for the year to come. Ready to get back to taking care of my OWN wellbeing, instead of trying so hard to please everyone else (ie, Stu). Looked at a place last night, in the avenues. HUGE house. 4 other roommates who, according to the dude who runs the ( Read more... )

I have the most intensive UTI of my entire life right now........ and I am trying to avoid going to the doctor before Friday. FML! As if the stabbing pains in my vagina aren't enough, it's quickly spreading to my kidneys ( Read more... )

It's not over, it couldn't be. We're too mad about each other. It's hard and it's manic and it's wild and it's passionate... and I don't want to leave. We were "broken up" for less than 24 hours and I'm amazed I was able to even breathe. I'm lucky to have found a man who can love me so completely. It's not supposed to be easy. That's unrealistic ( Read more... )

So.. patience, as it turns out, has proven itself to be incredibly valuable. I knew there was something special about him.
He's wonderful. His affections are genuine and sincere. He makes me want to be my best. I am my best when I'm with him. He has been an incredible communicator. He genuinely wants to know me. His laughter. His eyes. The look on ( Read more... )

I am the luckiest girl in the world.

between my amazing family, my kushy job, hilarious and exciting friends... and the biggest babe on the planet.. I can't find enough words to express the gratitude.

That is all.

I'm going to Portland. The definition of a whim.

send me loves and hopes and dreams and all that one could hope to achieve in such a splendid spontaneous rush! Whooooo. The body's natural highs defy all others.

peace and grease

Tommy Garner died. Overdose. Heroin ( Read more... )

He is so hopelessly wounded and I can't tell whether he wants me to stick around and help, or run fast and far away. I can't tell if my presence in his life has made things better or worse for him. His addictions are overbearing. I want to help without nagging like I'm his mother. I don't know what I can do, I'm trying to be as supportive as ( Read more... )

It didn't take long
But he's got me. We've been good together, and good to each other. He's wonderful. I'm lucky. I'm happy.

Happy enough to have cancelled my SD trip. Defitiely worth it.

I can't wait to see where this takes me. He's so soft and so sweet and so tempting.

This is the best part.

You won't repent for me. You'll never cry in my name. I won't let it happen.I often try not to think about it too much. Not to let my idealistic mind travel to fantastical world of "what if?" As much sense as I try to make of it here, language is drab and desensitizes it. What we have is beautiful and it's personal and it's real, despite ( Read more... )