The toenails of my big toes are turning black like I dropped something heavy on them and they're badly bruised. They don't really hurt and I don't remember stubbing them any harder than usual. What did I do ( Read more... )

Quantum has learned to fetch, kinda sorta. He's figured out that I will throw his rattle ball for him if he brings it to me. Smart little kitty! I wonder how long he'll remember this trick.

Suicide is now the leading killer of people aged 15 to 49, surpassing heart disease and cancer, and all generations born after 1945 are exhibiting a much higher suicide rate than normal. Worldwide, more people now die from suicide than from war, murder, and natural disasters combined. Joiner's analysis is a bit simplistic, but the Newsweek ( Read more... )

I come home from work and my roommate's brother has five friends over listening to loud music, eating all my food, offering me my own biscuits, and leaving crap everywhere. If I wanted to have 20-year-olds making a mess, being rowdy, and eating me out of house and home I'D HAVE HAD KIDS ( Read more... )

Scientists determine that "clock genes" may play a role in major depressive disorder. Sleep patterns and circadian rhythms are badly disrupted. The scientists analyzed cyclic gene expression in the brains of normal people and those with major depressive disorder. “It’s as if they were living in a different time zone than the one they died in,” one ( Read more... )

Been to the doctor's. I've lost 8 more pounds, which means I've lost 42 pounds since last November. They've upped my antidepressant dosage slightly, which should help. I'm not really using the Xanax any more, but I"ll keep it juuuuuuuust in case. I still wake up nervous and sometimes scared, but it's after my alarm rings, so I can deal with it. It ( Read more... )

Happy birthday to janetmiles! I hope it was a good one!

I've found an apartment with a nice gay guy. I'll have to see if I can fit a couple of bookshelves in there if it's okay. The area is under construction, but it's near the light rail and internet and utilities are included in the rent. Whew. I give the guy the security deposit and rent in a money order on Monday and then figure out how and when I ( Read more... )

I'm working at the day job and surviving. I'm still waking up at 4:00 a.m., taking the medicine, and then waking later very nervous. Sigh. Still no luck getting a job that will let me do more than barely survive (if that) and no luck with roommates yet. I've promised I won't leave rahirah and wildrider's tonight until I finish taxes.

I've put up roommate ads on Craigslist, Roomster, and another site. I'm really hoping to find something that works out. I also start the "live" portion of the call center work next week, which is really freaking me out. I hope that I'll be able to manage phones and upset people without freaking out. Deep breaths.

Wish me luck. I need it!