i had the nicest dream i think i my ever have had last night.
i had a boyfriend. i was round at his house and we just sat and watched tv. and i curled up in the chair with him and fell asleep and when i woke i kissed him just for the sake of kissing him.
it was so nice. *sigh* i need to get myself a boyfriend soon!

i just finished reading it today... it is an amazing book! note to self... go out and buy yourown copy! and take loz hers back ( Read more... )

oh and i lost all my nails... i had another moment of nothingness and bit them all off. dammit!

i think too much!

i dont know what to do journal... i feel so awful. today i went out with adam to see scoby doo 2 and that was ok, and then we went and sat in the park by St. Mary's for ages. we talked and didnt talk and talked some more and ran out of things to say and had awkward moments and then found conversation again. then he offered me a lift home with ( Read more... )

i dont know if i meantioned this. my mum came home on friday. just as i was getting ready to go over to jess' to watch both series of spaced and then go see shaun of the dead. it meant i was late getting to jess' cus i had to make mum a cup of tea when i should have been getting ready to go. shaun of the dead is a amazing! so funny and soo soo ( Read more... )

so, last night at about erm.. midnight! i decided it was time to look up some info on this band i'm meant to be interviewing on monday... the locust. it took me ages to find a webpage about them... and holy shit! it is sooo compleatly scarey! they wear mask things and their music is really fucked up... each song is about a minute long and consists ( Read more... )

well, today, i've spent most of the morning doing woodwork... cutting up those big boards for my cat activity centre for tech... i now have the makings of a huge blister on the inside of my right hand between the thumb and index finger... it's a bit painful. and they have also finally... after... god knows how many years... done the path outside ( Read more... )

today my mum had her operation, my dad came in after he had had a phone call to let him know it had all gone well etc, and he just burst out crying and sat on my bed... i had to hug him and got my sleave wet... why do i not feel anything? why am i not worried? why am i not scared? i really dont know whats wrong with me... i seem to have no emotion ( Read more... )

my mum went into hospital today... she was ok until she actually had to leave, then she got a bit teary on my shoulder... aparently david n james didnt even know she was meant to be going into hospital that day... you see this is because noone ever tells us anything... mum n dad just kinda spoke loudly on the phone and i guess hoped that we would ( Read more... )