Someday, the people I love will realize my greatness BEFORE the breaking of hearts and such. I am trying so hard to support him and be counselor and best friend to him. He came to me today all upset...I put him back together and sent him off to her...well, he has to work first, but you get the gist. I love that man so much. Despite my own better ( Read more... )

I had a doozy and woke up with a massive headache. My sinuses are messed up again and I feel weak. I want to talk to Jaysen about it. He may have some insight. I'm wondering if it was a magickal attack of some sort. All I know is I feel drained. Weak. Helpless. Dad had a fire last night and started in with how I don't need to try to get out and how ( Read more... )

somehow, I got logged out and don't remember the password. If you are reading this, the password was right. Okay. I'm feeling the lonely. Dad went on a rampage last night and I am wanting to move out, like, yesterday, but, alas, i must wait until finances allow. I love Jaysen. He loves me and Peg. I just have to deal if I want him in my life. That' ( Read more... )

Yeah. I can just picture the ad ( Read more... )

Okay, I know I haven't posted in a while. Life's going crazy now and my heart is beyond broken.I tried to patch things up and stay friends with Jaysen, but he insisted that Peg's feelings and demands come first, so I had to cut the tie. Now I'm hurting terribly. I ache inside. It feels like a part of me has been ripped out. I just sat at Common ( Read more... )

what a crazy world we live in! I've been getting some wake up calls that clue me into the fact that , alas, the world does not revolve around me! I've been really good, as crazy as things have been with the whole Jaysen situation. I'm still friends with him and Rich, and hopefully, someday, Peg. She seems to hate me right now...which I don't really ( Read more... )

This must be a record. It hit about four in the morning and I got a bug up my butt and started highlighting 1 bedroom apartments for me and Jocy. Then, this turned into the best high. The depression I was wallowing in slipped away, at least for now. I hope it lasts. I'm going to go see Jaysen today and say a goodbye that's not wrought with ( Read more... )

I hate this. I'm trying to push down the thought that he's actually missing me. I know better. He's probably with her and I don't even cross his thoughts. I miss him, though. I miss curling my body up to him and burying my head under his chin. I miss how we used to have conversations as we slowly had sex....I'd say making love, but now it feels ( Read more... )

At least the ones I actually date. My friends are the only decent ones...maybe it's because I date them that they find it necessary to act like complete imbeciles. Jaysen.He's decided he's more in love with a married woman and that I am complete shit. I stood by him when Molly was ripping him apart. I was willing to help him through anything. I was ( Read more... )

Okay...here goes...since my last entry...I have managed to get my antbiotics and kick the UTI...But it seems I have acquired a new set of friends. Peg and Rich. They have 3 kids..all girls. Happy happy. Things are fun and weird and fun some more....my period showed up 2 weeks early...on the blue moon along with Peg and her oldest daughter...making ( Read more... )