and I still have nothing to do. I went to Gwenn's scrapbooking party. Jocy's cranky, and so are Mom and Dad.feeling okay today. He's still on my mind, though it doesn't hurt as badly as it has been. I talked to Cary today. Good to hear he's doing well. Got IM ed by some guy from NYC, a stockbroker named John. He even called me. That is, until Jocy ( Read more... )

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! It hurts. so far away. I should sleep.

I'm depressed. Shouldn't be that way. It's bad for the health. I want to cry. Just sit down and bawl. But I don't do that anymore. Don't think I can anymore. Sometimes a tear or two creep out when I get nostalgic or watch a movie, but not a really good weep. Just like I don't smile as much as I used to....not sincerely , anyway. It's a smile that ( Read more... )

Morning, all. Three people called me while I was at work last night. One was Angie Benevides, Thalia's mom...then Rachel, and then Dolton. I felt so special. Anyway, I've been hearing from quite a few people lately, it's neat. Spent most of work daydreaming. I've tried searching for him online, but it's like he doesn't exist. I don't dare ask Jamie ( Read more... )

Wow. It was neat hearing from Dolton. People have been popping out of the woodwork lately. I talked to David, Gwenn, and now Dolton. There's been several others who I haven't heard from latley pop up and say hi.I'm so excited....if I keep up my current weight loss, I'll have lost 90lbs by October. That would rock! So far I've lost a grand total of ( Read more... )

Okay, don't have the components to cast tonight. Will try maybe Friday. As long as it's a waxing moon it should be okay. Screen fell on top of me a few minutes ago. Scratched my back,ouchies! TV in the living room went kaput. My TV taking it's place, now. Happy I could do something to help the family. Not so happy cuz now I can't watch my porn in ( Read more... )

Couldn't get into it tonight. Can't seem to fight this sinking feeling inside me. Sang well late into it....first song I killed but the second I did well. Crystal came up to me asking about Jeff and Miss V. She seems to think that the fact that the two of them are nearly inseperable at karaoke means that they're into each other. She said there's no ( Read more... )

Don't know why I wrote that. Jamie criticised me for not knowing Wyatt's last name....HA! She told me, so I know it now! I can't believe I've wanted him for going on nine years , now. NONE of my obsessions has lasted this long. Makes me wonder what the powers have in store for me. I wonder what he looks like now? I heard his hair was cut. He wore ( Read more... )

Hello all. I kicked ass in Karaoke, I was so happy. Everyone did so well, it was like we all needed to be back. Jason and Miss Veronica rocked. Then, I came home, had a bacon sandwich, and sat down on the computer. I got to talk to my friend , Jamie. She was trashed, but just reaching out there was all I needed. She said she was surprised I ( Read more... )

Had an entry set and I got booted...so it never went up....wrote for the other journal, and it didn't go through. Okay...so here it goes...again ( Read more... )