yay we finally got our laptops and some time to actually use it for stuff not really related to weapons. my running's slowly coming back, not as good as it used to be, but i think its just cos i haven't been in a mood to do much anyway. probably cos i stayed in here for too long a duration. maybe the book out will help change things. either way, it ( Read more... )

some people believe in god i believe in music.
when people go off to pray i turn on the radio.

I don’t have a fear of commitment - I have a fear of abandonment. We all screw things up; I screw things up, especially with the people I love. I get needy, I get moody, I get distant, I want to be too close, I get confused. I don’t understand all of it but I keep pushing because I hope in this thing - the universe. There’s no way I’m the only ( Read more... )

hahahaha i don't know whether i should be happy or to be sad about my posting, afterall, i am fine with both anyway. i know why i am doing this, i more or less know what has to be done?? (army is unpredictable) i know its not gonna be easy. but ah well, lets just say, can we get over and done with this as quickly as possible. (: kthx. apart from ( Read more... )

monday is coming. and it feels like enlistment all over again. the huge inertial to go back in. the reluctance to know where i will be posted to. the empty feeling you get once you're inside. sometimes i really admire everyone else. they have like a whole list of events awaiting them, something to look forward in the near future. sometimes i feel ( Read more... )

 i don't know if its me. but everyone seems a lot quieter lately. kinda sad cos i like it when the place is filled with conversations and laughters. hahahaha sounds like a little girl living in a fairy tale. but i guess its supposed to be happier out of camp than it is in camp! being out of camp is something everyone always looks forward to. the ( Read more... )

 yay we left tekong. though its kinda weird to see all the commanders so sad and stuff. feels like the time i left the hc boys to go for army. but i guess its just part and parcel of life. i have no idea what's going to happen next though. somehow everyone is making ocs sound so scary. hmmm just gonna enjoy my short lived freedom! hahahaha. 

 i had an awesome birthday yesterday! have like a lot of people to thank for putting in so much effort to planning everything and making it so special. the nat team people for the card the gifts and the cake. i know there's still like a few more shirts coming up. its really nice getting so many presents. don't normally get so many presents. ( Read more... )

 this week i did quite a lot of reflections. somehow. its like i came face to face with so many questions that made me think about a lot of things. for one, my parents have been asking me to let them know of a birthday present so they can get something i like. but its been two days and i still haven't thought of something to tell them. that's when ( Read more... )

 hello civilians, recruit ho hin yang here. life has been quite boring over at the east of singapore, the only thing you get to watch over there is planes taking off. and the only thing you get to bring home from tekong is cough and smelly clothes. hahahaha ah well. i have everyone is still alive. don't die people. and thanks for keeping this place