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A little bit acid rain
A little bit celebration
A little bit anarchy
A lack of motivation
It's painted upon your face
Beautiful hallucination
You can't get enough
You take and take and take and take

- what Blackout was in LPTV 28

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest

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I'm tipsy. I wish it would last. So I could float forever and not feel the sharp, sharp hurt that my sober trans life is currently ( Read more... )

Sam and I were in bed yesterday after a long evening of dinner, sweets and tea at his aunt's place. I'd been playing a top 10 list of Thirty Seconds To Mars songs before bed and rattling off about my love for their music and videos, and how I really should get to watching all of them ( Read more... )

A week and a half later the dysphoria has calmed, though it's still hanging around like a dead weight I just can't seem to shake.

Still resolutely in the transmasculine realm though. I don't really know what to do with myself anymore.

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I want your love, I want your disease. I want you open mouthed and on your knees.
I want your drama, the touch of your hand. I want you leather choked, cuffed to my hand.

I never realised until now how fucking filthy Thirty Seconds To Mars' cover of Lady Gaga's Bad Romance is. Clearly Jared Leto has some non-vanilla proclivities...

The label "queer" feels to me like an ill-fitting sock that I'm trying to squeeze over my head. It's ironic really, because I spent years feeling an unexplained affinity for the LGBT community. I wanted to be one of them, felt like I should be one of them, but I was "straight". And an ally. And a good ally doesn't speak over those they're ( Read more... )

One of your closer friends tries to explain LGBTQ+ categories to you and how "queer" covers multiple identities including non-binary.

And you're non-binary. But they don't know that.