Its been a while.. heh chaz and i did get back together and we split, actually we got married and now divorcing.. heh.. i guess you can only drill something into someones heads for so long before the realize the reality of it for so long.. i was in love and did what i had to to keep it.

I am back with Chaz offically as of september 9 2004. but i have been living with him since august 8 2004. we have decided that we are moving to colorado springs next summer and carry on from there. it only took me 2 and a half years to drill in his head we are meant to be togeter. after one failed relationship after another, here we are again. ( Read more... )

(DREAM)i was laying in my bed asleep. he walked in and gentley kissed my lips. i woke up in mass confusion and had no idea what was going on. he pulled himself up on top of me and pulled his body up so we were matched up aligned. the pressure of his body felt so good against mine. when i finally woke up realized it was my ex and i tried to push ( Read more... )

i hate job corps. what can i say.? people who are supposed to be my friends arent and those who arent tell me more of what i need to know then anything. i have 2 real friends here and both are mad at me or im mad at them cuz im mad at the world. its not good to be like this. at the same respect how is someone going to tell another person that they ( Read more... )